Gloom....despair....and agony on me...
Have you ever been at that point where it's starting to feel like the person you love is trying to tell you that he doesn't love you? Well, that's where I think I'm heading. I can't really explain it and he'll prolly get upset when he reads this, but I dunno. It's just a feeling that I've had these past few days when I've been missing him so much more than normal. I don't know what to do. It hurts like hell. And especially since I'm having to go to SDD without him. *sighs* There are pros and cons to this.
Pros
♥ He won't get to meet everyone yet
♥ I don't have to worry about making him dance just yet
♥ I can dance and not worry about leaving him out *grins sheepishly* I tend to do that...
♥ I can go with the girls
Cons
† I won't get to see him
† It doesn't seem as special since I can't share it with him
† It's weird not going with a date
† I'm just not sure I'll be able to have that much fun without him. It was hard at Anchor Club when we were broken up, so I dunno how it'll be for me at SDD.
*sighs* so this is my dilemma. I want to go with him, but he can't go anymore. God I HATE this freaking distance! I seriously do! I'm at the point where I'm so close to getting on a bus and going up there and walking to his house just to spend five minutes with him. That's how much I miss him. I'd walk up there from my house. *sighs* and part of me doesn't even think he'd really care....and it hurts to even think that.
But in other news, I might be going to Chicago with French 4. Oh and I'm the new French Club President and I'm working the paperwork for MUN this year. It's gonna be so much fun! And I noticed that all the schools on the list for MUN this year are all from around here. But Cody said that his old school was going. According to the country listing, they're not registered or something. *shrugs* oh well. Greece won't be Greece this year *tear* Oh well. I'm a Frenchie and between Alicia and I, we're gonna scare our council into thinking we're awesome and dictators and it's gonna rock!
Still sad about John dying and with Lelia in the hospital...things aren't really too cheerful around here. Yard sale on Saturday. I'm jumping up and down for joy. yeah right.
Ok, so I'm gonna leave you here now. I need time to think. I don't know what to do and there's no one I can talk to about it....
Pros
♥ He won't get to meet everyone yet
♥ I don't have to worry about making him dance just yet
♥ I can dance and not worry about leaving him out *grins sheepishly* I tend to do that...
♥ I can go with the girls
Cons
† I won't get to see him
† It doesn't seem as special since I can't share it with him
† It's weird not going with a date
† I'm just not sure I'll be able to have that much fun without him. It was hard at Anchor Club when we were broken up, so I dunno how it'll be for me at SDD.
*sighs* so this is my dilemma. I want to go with him, but he can't go anymore. God I HATE this freaking distance! I seriously do! I'm at the point where I'm so close to getting on a bus and going up there and walking to his house just to spend five minutes with him. That's how much I miss him. I'd walk up there from my house. *sighs* and part of me doesn't even think he'd really care....and it hurts to even think that.
But in other news, I might be going to Chicago with French 4. Oh and I'm the new French Club President and I'm working the paperwork for MUN this year. It's gonna be so much fun! And I noticed that all the schools on the list for MUN this year are all from around here. But Cody said that his old school was going. According to the country listing, they're not registered or something. *shrugs* oh well. Greece won't be Greece this year *tear* Oh well. I'm a Frenchie and between Alicia and I, we're gonna scare our council into thinking we're awesome and dictators and it's gonna rock!
Still sad about John dying and with Lelia in the hospital...things aren't really too cheerful around here. Yard sale on Saturday. I'm jumping up and down for joy. yeah right.
Ok, so I'm gonna leave you here now. I need time to think. I don't know what to do and there's no one I can talk to about it....