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Life right now is ..... eh *shrugs* Babysitting, school, dealing with crappy people, SSDD. Not really much to say. French Club is gonna take up a lot of my time.
I'm scared beyond all reason right now. Cody won't talk to me and he took me off his top 8 on myspace and I'm just scared shitless. I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I even cranked out a RHYMING COUPLETS POEM. I don't write those anymore. I haven't written one in over a year and a half! Not counting the one I had to write for my poetry portfolio. Here it is:
You'll never see the tears I cry
Because I hold them all inside
I hide the hurt and the pain
The joys and the gain
You say I'm always smiling
But you don't see what I'm hiding
You see me smile
But it's only for a while
I break down only when I'm alone
In the quietness of my home
Where I know no one can hear me
Or see the tears that fall free
I see relationships fall apart
And yet deep down, in my heart
I pray mine never will
And the future will be our future still
I cry only in my room with the door shut
Because I feel like I'm stuck in a rut
One that I can't get out of
And it's affecting everyone that I love
I'm screaming inside
And this is eating me alive
I'm scared out of my mind
It seems like all this came up from behind
I don't know what else to do
I don't know who I can turn to
I'm not beginning to doubt
But all this makes me want to scream and shout
Can anyone understand
Before this gets too out of hand?
And help me figure this out
Before I begin again to doubt
So there it is. I'm so scard right now. I'm shaking and I don't know who to talk to. I need to talk this out but seeing as Charlie's an ass, I can't talk to him about this stuff anymore. Can anyone help me? Does anyone care?
I'm scared beyond all reason right now. Cody won't talk to me and he took me off his top 8 on myspace and I'm just scared shitless. I don't know what to do or who to talk to. I even cranked out a RHYMING COUPLETS POEM. I don't write those anymore. I haven't written one in over a year and a half! Not counting the one I had to write for my poetry portfolio. Here it is:
You'll never see the tears I cry
Because I hold them all inside
I hide the hurt and the pain
The joys and the gain
You say I'm always smiling
But you don't see what I'm hiding
You see me smile
But it's only for a while
I break down only when I'm alone
In the quietness of my home
Where I know no one can hear me
Or see the tears that fall free
I see relationships fall apart
And yet deep down, in my heart
I pray mine never will
And the future will be our future still
I cry only in my room with the door shut
Because I feel like I'm stuck in a rut
One that I can't get out of
And it's affecting everyone that I love
I'm screaming inside
And this is eating me alive
I'm scared out of my mind
It seems like all this came up from behind
I don't know what else to do
I don't know who I can turn to
I'm not beginning to doubt
But all this makes me want to scream and shout
Can anyone understand
Before this gets too out of hand?
And help me figure this out
Before I begin again to doubt
So there it is. I'm so scard right now. I'm shaking and I don't know who to talk to. I need to talk this out but seeing as Charlie's an ass, I can't talk to him about this stuff anymore. Can anyone help me? Does anyone care?