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I couldnt help but wonder if it were true that i really do enjoy torturing myself so. Then i get something like this:
"i miss driving down to visit you.. i miss our little picnic things.. i miss holding you in my arms when we sleep"
And I remember why I havent given up, moved on, etc. No matter how small a chance, knowing it is there is more than enough to keep me dragging myself onward. It was a surprise reading that since I was forming a list of "I miss" of my own in an attempt of purging my poor brain (and only stopped when it got too hard to look back) and i kinda assumed i was just uber obsessive remembering little things. But knowing that both ends were missing the same things makes my hurt a bit less painful, just because it is shared. Ive never felt like I was that important to someone before, where im contantly on their mind... and for it to be someone so incredibly important to me its just indescribable
I ask that no matter what happens you guys stand by whatever I do. And I know most of you will.. I just worry that Ive been dancing on thin ice for way too long and I dont know if ill ever find solid ground again.
Sometimes love don't feel like it should,
You make it hurt so good
"i miss driving down to visit you.. i miss our little picnic things.. i miss holding you in my arms when we sleep"
And I remember why I havent given up, moved on, etc. No matter how small a chance, knowing it is there is more than enough to keep me dragging myself onward. It was a surprise reading that since I was forming a list of "I miss" of my own in an attempt of purging my poor brain (and only stopped when it got too hard to look back) and i kinda assumed i was just uber obsessive remembering little things. But knowing that both ends were missing the same things makes my hurt a bit less painful, just because it is shared. Ive never felt like I was that important to someone before, where im contantly on their mind... and for it to be someone so incredibly important to me its just indescribable
I ask that no matter what happens you guys stand by whatever I do. And I know most of you will.. I just worry that Ive been dancing on thin ice for way too long and I dont know if ill ever find solid ground again.
Sometimes love don't feel like it should,
You make it hurt so good