Knights of the Round
Basics
Name/Alias: Azriel
Age: (recently) 16 years
Gender: Female
Would you prefer to be voted as a boy, girl, or no pref: Male please; I'm not as familiar with the female characters.
Where you heard about this community: Lead here by an interest search fueled by lack of sleep and a caffeine pill.
About You
Favorite Color: black, white, red, grey
Favorite Food: I'm not really picky; if I'm hungry, I'll eat it. But I really DON'T like melted cheese.
Favorite Song (and why): At this time, 'Cage' by Dir en grey. Not only do I like the vocals, but I love the background instruments as well. I've always tended to like songs in the minor key.
Strengths: I'm confident, and usually a good leader because I much prefer thinking over impulse. I prefer to work alone as opposed to with a team (unless the people on said team pull their weight). I'm extremely open-minded, and more or less impossible to offend. I'm pretty good with people, and don't mind being the one to approach a wall-flower at a party or social event. I can be distant at times, but I care deeply about my friends and do my best to be there when they want someone to talk to. I've got a dry wit, which is handy in those ice-breaker situations. I'm good at not letting people know what I'm thinking or feeling unless I really want them to know.
Weaknesses: It's hard for me sometimes to show people that I care about them. If I feel like I'm becoming too vulnerable or showing too much of my inner emotions, then I'll clam up and get distant and more reserved. I hate to ask other people for help because I feel like a burden. I don't like feeling dependent on others. I have a fear of not measuring up or not being good enough, and a fear of failure. I'm also afraid of being discarded for someone better, or that people won't find me fun to be around. Apologizing meaningfully is hard for me, even though I don't like to hurt people's feelings.
What you love: Drawing, writing, music, fashion design, rain, singing, dancing, cars/motorcycles, weapons, intellectual conversation, psychology, sociology, philosophy, Tim Burton, leather, my friends, stupid inside jokes, visual kei, military uniforms
What you hate: Authority figures who abuse their power or don't deserve it in the first place, being blamed or yelled at, ignorance, close-minded people, hypocrisy, overly hyper/obnoxious/loud people, board/card games, religions being shoved in my face, reality television, religious fanatics
Hobbies & Interests: Writing, drawing, casual debate, music, military strategy, volleyball (it's a rare occasion that I get to play, but I like it all the same.)
Your dream: To get published and see my work on a shelf somewhere, and gain some acclaim along the way. To live in a way that makes me happy.
Either-Or
Optimistic or Pessimistic: How about 'optimistic pessimist'? I prefer to think realistically. It's okay to be optimistic, but to be fully prepared, I think it's best to expect bad things to happen as well. I don't think that life is out to screw me over, but things don't always go as planned, and I'd rather acknowledge that and be ready for it.
Mature or Immature: Mature. I don't really like to act silly around most people, aside from my main family and close friends. My father's favorite thing to tell me is, 'Act your age; not your height in inches'.
Summer or Winter: Summer. The landscape is interesting-looking in the winter, but I've spent enough time in the North that even just the mention of snow makes me wince.
Morning or Night: Night. Morning is the beginning of something new, but I've found that the more interesting people appear at night; people who are not afraid to show true colors, and I like that.
Outgoing or Shy: Outgoing, but not to the point of being hyper. It's easy for me to strike up conversation with people if I want to. I'm not overly flamboyant or loud, but I don't think I need to be in order for people to listen.
Conservative or Risky: It depends on the situation. Sometimes a risk needs to be taken in order for 'ground to be won', but I refuse to take a risk if it endangers me or anyone else needlessly.
Lead or Follow: I tend to lead; I don't like being controlled. I don't have to fight for it; if I'm in a group, people usually ask me to anyways. But I like it when people have insight and opinions and work with me rather than just working under me.
Confident or Modest: Confident, though I don't like to brag about myself at all. I know what I'm good at, but I also know that I'm not the best, and I like it that way. It's more initiative for me to work hard and improve myself.
Logic or Emotion: Logic. I get nervous if I try to allow pure emotion to guide me. Emotions are important, but I think it's better to act upon them intelligently.
In-depth
Can you put your trust in people? Why or why not? I can put a reserved trust in people who haven't given me a reason to doubt them. But the only person that I can fully trust is myself. I'm a bit Machiavellian; I believe that it is in people's nature to act based on what is good for them. So I'd sooner vest full trust in myself; at least that way it's obvious whose fault it is if I fail. However, there are a few people that I trust very strongly, and who put mutual trust in me.
Do you prefer working with a group or alone? Why or why not? Usually, I prefer working alone. There are advantages to having a team in some situations, but sometimes it's a hindrance which causes less work to be done in a certain period of time. At best, I enjoy working with a group IF each member of the team is willing to pull their own weight. Working alone is simply less time-consuming.
Do you: Help people whenever you can; Wish you helped people but walk away anyway; or believe people get what they deserve? I help those who are not too far out of my way, and whom I believe truly deserve help. I don't necessarily believe that people 'get what they deserve'; innocent people are hurt all time. But it isn't my job to try and save them all, nor is it possible.
Do you act on impulse and instinct or do you take time to think things through? I think things through. The only times that I'm truly impulsive are when I absolutely have to be; like if I'm driving and have to avoid a collision, in which case there simply isn't time to think every option through. But I prefer to be more tactful and thoughtful than that. Being careful tends to yield less unpleasant surprises, so I've noted.
What is your choice weapon and why? An odd mix between guns and swords; different reasons for each. A sword is classic and takes much skill to master; a sword is decorative and carries a noble and chivalric weight in it. But guns are much more practical in this day and age. I prefer handguns, namely revolvers, or anything which is easily held and can fire several shots before a reload is necessary.
What is one thing you believe in more than anything? Would you fight for it? It's a joint belief, actually. Equality, and the separation of church and state. I don't believe that it is right for one religious sect of politicians to speak out in opposition of something merely because it is against their religion. In my country, the 'freedom of religion' should imply the 'freedom from religion'. I believe in equality; I believe that gender, race, religion, or sexual orientation are no basis on which to judge a characer. And yes; I would fight for that belief. (If I ever become President, I'll likely be assassinated xD)
If there was one thing you could change about yourself, what would it be? I could be noble and respond 'nothing at all', though it would be dishonest. I would make myself more empathatic, I suppose. I come across as distant or unconcerned sometimes when it comes to others' pain; my own father says that he thinks I lack empathy. I don't cry or anything when I'm faced with other's problems. That comes across the wrong way, because if it is someone that I care for (or even just feel I can relate with in some way or another), I'm simply trying to keep my own mind clear so that I can find a smart way to help them. What comes across as unfeeling is really me trying to keep a calm head and get a grasp on a situation.
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