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eddie called last night.. all i wanted was more of an explanation. that's all. that was most of the hurt... the fact that it was like BAM, over, no warning, totally blindsided me. he mentioned that he wanted to be single and that he didnt think he would have any time for it cuz of work. THAT i understand.. that's all i needed to hear. he loves work, and he spends a lot of time doing so. he's also starting some classes. i absolutely understand that. i also really wanted to smooth things over.. cuz despite how fucked up the drunken breakup was (which he admits), i hold no grudges against any of my exes. if i liked him enough to go out with him for 2 months, obviously i think enough of him to consider him a friend.
it's amazing how easily that was fixed. seriously... i dont require much. just be real with me and i'm good to go.
and this weekend helped me realize just how genuine certain people were. my sister bev was completely understanding when i decided to go home early. even tho she says she didnt know how to help in that type of situation... that was help enough. and of all people, jay was the one to chill with me, talk things out, help me vent once i got home from newark. i cant even start to describe how grateful i am of that. he's such a good person. always there for me. he knows what i felt that night... and despite the fact that it was ME that caused him that kind of pain, he was understanding rather than resentful. that really reflects his personality.
alright.. work tonight. bleh. back to the old routine.
it's amazing how easily that was fixed. seriously... i dont require much. just be real with me and i'm good to go.
and this weekend helped me realize just how genuine certain people were. my sister bev was completely understanding when i decided to go home early. even tho she says she didnt know how to help in that type of situation... that was help enough. and of all people, jay was the one to chill with me, talk things out, help me vent once i got home from newark. i cant even start to describe how grateful i am of that. he's such a good person. always there for me. he knows what i felt that night... and despite the fact that it was ME that caused him that kind of pain, he was understanding rather than resentful. that really reflects his personality.
alright.. work tonight. bleh. back to the old routine.