Just another day
Well today is just another day for me. To much on my plate to figure out what to do. There is so much going on that I do not know when to deal with what. People that say that they care about my daughter are hurting her so much. It makes me feel bad to say it and I am sure that there are those that disagree but the abuse that her dad and her step mom to be are getting online is really to much. I think that everyone knows that there is no love lost there for me especially where the step mom to be is concerned but when all this is being done to them and they are being hurt so bad by it it directly impacts Tessa's life. She has to live with them and the hurt and anger that they feel puts stress on her. I don't understand why people can not let things go. I mean really aren't we all adults. Well, enough of that rant. I am overwhelmed with the amount of work that I have to get done for school and I can not beleive that I only have two weeks of class left before finals. I have no idea where this semester went and boy are my grades going to show it. I am still dealing with stuff with Bill too. He is such a pain in the ass. He got real weird on me a couple of weeks ago because he thought that I was going on a date. Then last weekend I mentioned that Tessa and I had been talking about me getting married(because of something on TV there is no guy)and he really got all agitated I guess is the best way to describe it. I figured out that I need to talk to him about the fact that he can not keep doing this to me. He needs to let me go. He does not want to be with me at least not now and that is fine but that being the case he needs to stop this jealous shit everytime there is a guy in my life or he thinks that there is one. I sent him a couple of messages and he actually called me Thursday and we were supposed to talk but we were both tired so he called yesterday but he was on his way home from work and I was writing a paper so I kind of put him off again. I sent him a message last night and told him that I was sorry about putting him off and that we would talk about it in the next two days. I want to get it over with but at the same time I am not looking forward to doing it. We will see. Right now I better go check on how mom is doing. I got back on the computer while I was waiting for her to get off the phone and she went down to get dinner so I better make sure that all is well. I will update soon. I should have my computer back in a few days.