And TSUKASA was a coconut.
The last couple of months, I haven't had any dreams, but since Friday night, I've had a CRAP TON of them... and they've all been D'espairsRay-related.
So, my dream last night. tomandakaulitz and I had just gotten in the queue to see D'espairsRay. I was slightly aggravated when we got there because it was SUPER early and there were already people there in front of us. For some reason, all said people looked like Dungeons & Dragons nerds with long, frizzy hair and awful acne. I think this is because the episode of Grounded For Life I watched right before I went to bed had characters like this. XD Anyway, for some reason, the queue was like that of a ride at my local theme park-- it was indoors and super twisty and would take forever to get through. The wait ended up not feeling so bad, though, because Amanda and I were jabbering away the entire time.
SO! We finally got to the ticket-checking area. Even though we were pretty far back in line, Amanda and I ended up being one of the first few people to have our tickets ripped or whatever, but then the venue people wanted everyone to stay in this huge opera house-like room until everyone arrived. From there, they'd call out everyone's name one-by-one to torture us make sure no one had gotten into the concert hall just yet. The person's who's name was called would have to shout, "Here!" and then they could go into the pit. They were going to do it by alphabetical order and I thought, "Shit! I'm gonna be called towards the end and then I won't be able to get my spot in front of Karyu! ;__;" And if you didn't announce yourself there, they'd kick you out. So while they started calling out names, I kept anxiously looking out the "opera room" through the doorway to the stage and pit, thinking, "I have to go. I can't wait. I have to get there. I can't stand here and wait for them to call out my name. I have to get there now. I can't take this anymore." So I turned and told Amanda, "Hey, let's go now." Somehow, this is where my mom makes herself present in my dream. She said she'd wait in the opera room and answer for us when our names were called, and that she'd go back to the hotel afterward. So Amanda and I ran out of the room to the pit, but when we got there, some of the nerds were right in "my spot" in front of Karyu. I was fairly aggravated and wanted to push them out of the way ruthlessly. But then I thought, "That would be douchey of me. I'll just push 'em outta the way as soon as the concert starts. *evil grin*"
/bitchy. But I wanted to be in front of Karyu! ;__; So sue my dream-self. I wouldn't actually do it IRL... maybe.
Anyway, somehow, the nerds ended up moving out of the way on their own, so I promptly got into the area I wanted to be in. But as soon as I got there, for some reason the area I was in turned into green stairs, and if I wanted to be in front of Mr. K, I would have had to lay on them, unable to head bang or dance the entire time. I thought, "I want to be in front of Karyu, but I'd rather go crazy to the music than be stuck like this." So I started to get off the stairs to move back a row, but as soon as I did, a smart board was rolled onto the stage. As soon as that happened, the stairs were no longer stairs, and I realized I was a good 8 feet away from the area where Karyu would really be. So Tomanda and I moved over some more and got in the perfect spot. ♥ Suddenly, the smart board started playing an advertisement promoting... the promoters of D'espairsRay. (?) When that was over, it then started showing a cartoon, in which a squirrel was rolling around half a coconut filled with shaved coconut, and I thought, "Oh! It's a cartoon about D'espairsRay's travels thus far! And TSUKASA represents the coconut!"
...I don't know why TSUKASA was a coconut, but now that I think about it, I think it's the fruit that definitely suits him best. Yeah, I dunno. D8
So, back to the screen! When the cartoon was over, the lights went out and dramatic intro music started playing. Then I thought, "This is it! This is it! They're finally announcing the American tour dates!" ...even though we were already at a concert, the shows weren't released yet...? Yeah, dreams are weird. XD The intro music became louder and louder and more intense. I knew that D'espairsRay was also about to come out on stage the moment the tour dates were shown. I kept my focus on the smart board, waiting for the dates, and suddenly a bunch of jumbled letters that were supposed to be dates started scrolling up the screen. I knew they weren't the dates that I was going to see them at, and that the ones that were, I would be able to read... and just as my heart started beating faster and faster, just as the intro music was getting heavier, the atmosphere rising to insane levels, just as the band was about to come out...
I woke up.
GAAAAAR! So close! I was so close! I was just about to see the tour dates and D'espa and I woke up! I can't believe it! That was the worst case of waking-up-right-before-the-good-part syndrome I have ever experienced! When I woke up, I was shaking. I couldn't hold still. I was so bursting with excitement that my firsts were curled to the point that my nails dug into my palms. Oh mai gaaa!
It was around six in the morning and I could hear my mom getting ready to leave upstairs. I thought, "Well, shit. I'm too excited to get back to sleep." I tried and tried to fall back asleep, but the butterflies in my stomach were extra-tickley brand. So I didn't fall asleep until a while later, in which I quickly fell into another dream about my sister getting pregnant (NOOOOO!) And then it was time for school. :/
Thus ends the re-telling of my dream. I've already told Amanda, my mom, my Sister, Seth (my friend), some other friends, I've written it in my IRL journal, my dream log for psychology (poor Mr. F who's gonna be reading nothing but D'espairsRay dreams) and now here. I'm very excited.
Anyway, I think it's really kinda funny how dreams work. I think the nerds in the way, the stairs, and opera room name-calling represent my anxiety over whether I'll get the spot I so desperately want. The promoter stuff is about the lack of UK dates and crisis_cadaver working frantically to try and find one for them. My mom being there to answer for us when our names were called shows how much I've depended (or still depend) on her to help me get me to the spot I want(ed), and the cartoons... I don't know WTF the cartoon thing was all about, but whatever. Most importantly, I think it's very curious how all the letter and numbers of the tour dates were scrambled up to unrecognizable proportions. CLEARLY it shows how anxious I am for them to just be announced all-pucking-ready, and that even though I'm trying really hard to figure out where D'espairsRay might come, I can't. Curious, very curioussss.
On a much less happier subject, I urge everyone once more to join savedarfur.org. Please. The elections ended quite a while ago and indicted war criminal "president" Omar al-Bashir (I accidentally just typed "al-Bashit"-- isn't entirely inaccurate) is getting ready to accept his unfair "victory" and continue the insanity going on in Sudan. Recently, Hilary Clinton has made a statement that the elections were entirely illegitimate. PLEASE go here to urge her to stand up against this madness!→ action.savedarfur.org/campaign/postelectionsalert. Let's not let genocide or corrupt government continue!
That is all.
So, my dream last night. tomandakaulitz and I had just gotten in the queue to see D'espairsRay. I was slightly aggravated when we got there because it was SUPER early and there were already people there in front of us. For some reason, all said people looked like Dungeons & Dragons nerds with long, frizzy hair and awful acne. I think this is because the episode of Grounded For Life I watched right before I went to bed had characters like this. XD Anyway, for some reason, the queue was like that of a ride at my local theme park-- it was indoors and super twisty and would take forever to get through. The wait ended up not feeling so bad, though, because Amanda and I were jabbering away the entire time.
SO! We finally got to the ticket-checking area. Even though we were pretty far back in line, Amanda and I ended up being one of the first few people to have our tickets ripped or whatever, but then the venue people wanted everyone to stay in this huge opera house-like room until everyone arrived. From there, they'd call out everyone's name one-by-one to torture us make sure no one had gotten into the concert hall just yet. The person's who's name was called would have to shout, "Here!" and then they could go into the pit. They were going to do it by alphabetical order and I thought, "Shit! I'm gonna be called towards the end and then I won't be able to get my spot in front of Karyu! ;__;" And if you didn't announce yourself there, they'd kick you out. So while they started calling out names, I kept anxiously looking out the "opera room" through the doorway to the stage and pit, thinking, "I have to go. I can't wait. I have to get there. I can't stand here and wait for them to call out my name. I have to get there now. I can't take this anymore." So I turned and told Amanda, "Hey, let's go now." Somehow, this is where my mom makes herself present in my dream. She said she'd wait in the opera room and answer for us when our names were called, and that she'd go back to the hotel afterward. So Amanda and I ran out of the room to the pit, but when we got there, some of the nerds were right in "my spot" in front of Karyu. I was fairly aggravated and wanted to push them out of the way ruthlessly. But then I thought, "That would be douchey of me. I'll just push 'em outta the way as soon as the concert starts. *evil grin*"
/bitchy. But I wanted to be in front of Karyu! ;__; So sue my dream-self. I wouldn't actually do it IRL... maybe.
Anyway, somehow, the nerds ended up moving out of the way on their own, so I promptly got into the area I wanted to be in. But as soon as I got there, for some reason the area I was in turned into green stairs, and if I wanted to be in front of Mr. K, I would have had to lay on them, unable to head bang or dance the entire time. I thought, "I want to be in front of Karyu, but I'd rather go crazy to the music than be stuck like this." So I started to get off the stairs to move back a row, but as soon as I did, a smart board was rolled onto the stage. As soon as that happened, the stairs were no longer stairs, and I realized I was a good 8 feet away from the area where Karyu would really be. So Tomanda and I moved over some more and got in the perfect spot. ♥ Suddenly, the smart board started playing an advertisement promoting... the promoters of D'espairsRay. (?) When that was over, it then started showing a cartoon, in which a squirrel was rolling around half a coconut filled with shaved coconut, and I thought, "Oh! It's a cartoon about D'espairsRay's travels thus far! And TSUKASA represents the coconut!"
...I don't know why TSUKASA was a coconut, but now that I think about it, I think it's the fruit that definitely suits him best. Yeah, I dunno. D8
So, back to the screen! When the cartoon was over, the lights went out and dramatic intro music started playing. Then I thought, "This is it! This is it! They're finally announcing the American tour dates!" ...even though we were already at a concert, the shows weren't released yet...? Yeah, dreams are weird. XD The intro music became louder and louder and more intense. I knew that D'espairsRay was also about to come out on stage the moment the tour dates were shown. I kept my focus on the smart board, waiting for the dates, and suddenly a bunch of jumbled letters that were supposed to be dates started scrolling up the screen. I knew they weren't the dates that I was going to see them at, and that the ones that were, I would be able to read... and just as my heart started beating faster and faster, just as the intro music was getting heavier, the atmosphere rising to insane levels, just as the band was about to come out...
I woke up.
GAAAAAR! So close! I was so close! I was just about to see the tour dates and D'espa and I woke up! I can't believe it! That was the worst case of waking-up-right-before-the-good-part syndrome I have ever experienced! When I woke up, I was shaking. I couldn't hold still. I was so bursting with excitement that my firsts were curled to the point that my nails dug into my palms. Oh mai gaaa!
It was around six in the morning and I could hear my mom getting ready to leave upstairs. I thought, "Well, shit. I'm too excited to get back to sleep." I tried and tried to fall back asleep, but the butterflies in my stomach were extra-tickley brand. So I didn't fall asleep until a while later, in which I quickly fell into another dream about my sister getting pregnant (NOOOOO!) And then it was time for school. :/
Thus ends the re-telling of my dream. I've already told Amanda, my mom, my Sister, Seth (my friend), some other friends, I've written it in my IRL journal, my dream log for psychology (poor Mr. F who's gonna be reading nothing but D'espairsRay dreams) and now here. I'm very excited.
Anyway, I think it's really kinda funny how dreams work. I think the nerds in the way, the stairs, and opera room name-calling represent my anxiety over whether I'll get the spot I so desperately want. The promoter stuff is about the lack of UK dates and crisis_cadaver working frantically to try and find one for them. My mom being there to answer for us when our names were called shows how much I've depended (or still depend) on her to help me get me to the spot I want(ed), and the cartoons... I don't know WTF the cartoon thing was all about, but whatever. Most importantly, I think it's very curious how all the letter and numbers of the tour dates were scrambled up to unrecognizable proportions. CLEARLY it shows how anxious I am for them to just be announced all-pucking-ready, and that even though I'm trying really hard to figure out where D'espairsRay might come, I can't. Curious, very curioussss.
On a much less happier subject, I urge everyone once more to join savedarfur.org. Please. The elections ended quite a while ago and indicted war criminal "president" Omar al-Bashir (I accidentally just typed "al-Bashit"-- isn't entirely inaccurate) is getting ready to accept his unfair "victory" and continue the insanity going on in Sudan. Recently, Hilary Clinton has made a statement that the elections were entirely illegitimate. PLEASE go here to urge her to stand up against this madness!→ action.savedarfur.org/campaign/postelectionsalert. Let's not let genocide or corrupt government continue!
That is all.