The Pissed and the Party
Hear ye hear ye!
Melissa Zabrina Benitez, has graduated. Crazy eh?! I thought so myself :-D Its actually sureal. I need a job though, so i can keep my apartment. We had 2 STELLAR parties. One I got TRASHED on tequila ... the second I got full on Beans and RICE!!
Though I wish i could say both parties were grand ... there was a down side to both of them. Lets start off with the better of the two.
Sunday was a great day for a party, the sun was out, and people were just all smiling. The food was delicious, but I was TIRED!!!The week I had recently kicked my ass, from filming weddings to 2 graduations one being mine, and then a PARTY for me and my sis till the wee hours in the AM. I was wiped. I think someone up ther knew that cause I needed a lil rain to cool medown and wake me up. There were a few random pours. It was nice. Around 6pm, i managed to sneek away from the party and take a nap with my lovely sister on my Mum and Als bed. Laying down on thier bed brought back soo much memories. And I began to miss my sister so much, even though she was right infront of me.
Saturday night was my fathers party for us. We Drank ALOT, and when Nathalie gets to drunk ... she gets really really bad and irrational ... heres the story of that night. WARNING .. things you will read are wuite faqued up ...
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I was dressed to impress!! A beautiful gown, and beautiful heels, I had bling on, and I felt beautiful. Right after thinking and wondering why my bother hasn't contacted me yet, I step downstairs to the party. My friends came, and we drank the night away. My cousins and family were so proud of us. My sister and I have become a legacy for the Benitez family. We are the first women in the Benitez blood-line, to graduate college. Everyone was there, and they were oh so proud of us, I cried many times when I heard them say "you and your sister are incredible, through everything, you still did what you always dreamed of". Oof. wow. Well when the party wound down I remained downstairs with my sis and some close relatives. I was still trashed and I took her camera and was taking pics. I then took a picture of her and she got very upset. You need to understand my sister ALWAYS wants to look good. In everything. Any bad pictures of her must be destroyed. Well my cousin saw how upset she was and said " Awww are the sisters fighting" I replied with "no not at all, Nathalie just doesn't like bad pictures of her". She the flicked me off.
**FUCKED UP PART***
Well I know her when shes drunk, and that flick off was my que to leave. So I did. When my sis gets drunk, she can get mean, irrational and ruthless. I didn't want to deal with it. Her boyfriend came to me to console me. Cause she flips out on him all the time when shes drunk. Well it got UGLY, cause she heard him, and she literally ... flipped the fuck out ... I went outside to get some air. I felt bad that because of me well my sister and Nick were fighting. I was sitting in the far side of my fathers yard, when she and Nick came out. They didn't see me and began to "discuss". Next thing you know I hear how much she hates me. How much she cant stand me. How much she wishes I was never born. It SUCKED. I couldn't move. I just sat there and endured all of it. And I also learned that my sister fed Nick lies about me, so he would hate me, and love and pity her. So I sat there and cried ever so quietly and listened to the things she was saying about me. Nice ... just peachy, whatever ... my sister has always had this "woe is me" thing about her. I love her, I love her so much that I let her have that. I let people she knows think im a horribly spoiled brat, cause it makes her happy. I sat there when she left and I dont know for how long I cried. When I go into the house at like 3am, I see that everything that was mine was tossed everywhere. She had quite the tangent.
The next morning we talked. I never told her that I heard what she said to Nick. But I learned something about myself I never really knew. I am a bit rough around the edges, and my sister told me that when we split our way (me at home with my mum and Al, and she at college), we both changed drastically. In order to survive mentally and emotionally Al's terrible verbal attacks, I grew very guarded, and alot stronger to malicious intentions than she has. I can deal with stuff more than she can. And she explained that she didn't have to deal with that shyt, so she isn't like me at all. Aparenlty when I dont even realize it I say things that upset her. Ugh, dammit ... Im the queen of saying stuff the people interpert in the worst of ways. I love my sister. And I want her to be happy thats all, cause even though I have some drama here and there. Im content with my life. She isn't, and I would give up everything to help her find that peace.
Well Im off I need icecream, chocolate or some other endorphine provider. LOL aiight later skaters
~Micha~
Melissa Zabrina Benitez, has graduated. Crazy eh?! I thought so myself :-D Its actually sureal. I need a job though, so i can keep my apartment. We had 2 STELLAR parties. One I got TRASHED on tequila ... the second I got full on Beans and RICE!!
Though I wish i could say both parties were grand ... there was a down side to both of them. Lets start off with the better of the two.
Sunday was a great day for a party, the sun was out, and people were just all smiling. The food was delicious, but I was TIRED!!!The week I had recently kicked my ass, from filming weddings to 2 graduations one being mine, and then a PARTY for me and my sis till the wee hours in the AM. I was wiped. I think someone up ther knew that cause I needed a lil rain to cool medown and wake me up. There were a few random pours. It was nice. Around 6pm, i managed to sneek away from the party and take a nap with my lovely sister on my Mum and Als bed. Laying down on thier bed brought back soo much memories. And I began to miss my sister so much, even though she was right infront of me.
Saturday night was my fathers party for us. We Drank ALOT, and when Nathalie gets to drunk ... she gets really really bad and irrational ... heres the story of that night. WARNING .. things you will read are wuite faqued up ...
**********************
I was dressed to impress!! A beautiful gown, and beautiful heels, I had bling on, and I felt beautiful. Right after thinking and wondering why my bother hasn't contacted me yet, I step downstairs to the party. My friends came, and we drank the night away. My cousins and family were so proud of us. My sister and I have become a legacy for the Benitez family. We are the first women in the Benitez blood-line, to graduate college. Everyone was there, and they were oh so proud of us, I cried many times when I heard them say "you and your sister are incredible, through everything, you still did what you always dreamed of". Oof. wow. Well when the party wound down I remained downstairs with my sis and some close relatives. I was still trashed and I took her camera and was taking pics. I then took a picture of her and she got very upset. You need to understand my sister ALWAYS wants to look good. In everything. Any bad pictures of her must be destroyed. Well my cousin saw how upset she was and said " Awww are the sisters fighting" I replied with "no not at all, Nathalie just doesn't like bad pictures of her". She the flicked me off.
**FUCKED UP PART***
Well I know her when shes drunk, and that flick off was my que to leave. So I did. When my sis gets drunk, she can get mean, irrational and ruthless. I didn't want to deal with it. Her boyfriend came to me to console me. Cause she flips out on him all the time when shes drunk. Well it got UGLY, cause she heard him, and she literally ... flipped the fuck out ... I went outside to get some air. I felt bad that because of me well my sister and Nick were fighting. I was sitting in the far side of my fathers yard, when she and Nick came out. They didn't see me and began to "discuss". Next thing you know I hear how much she hates me. How much she cant stand me. How much she wishes I was never born. It SUCKED. I couldn't move. I just sat there and endured all of it. And I also learned that my sister fed Nick lies about me, so he would hate me, and love and pity her. So I sat there and cried ever so quietly and listened to the things she was saying about me. Nice ... just peachy, whatever ... my sister has always had this "woe is me" thing about her. I love her, I love her so much that I let her have that. I let people she knows think im a horribly spoiled brat, cause it makes her happy. I sat there when she left and I dont know for how long I cried. When I go into the house at like 3am, I see that everything that was mine was tossed everywhere. She had quite the tangent.
The next morning we talked. I never told her that I heard what she said to Nick. But I learned something about myself I never really knew. I am a bit rough around the edges, and my sister told me that when we split our way (me at home with my mum and Al, and she at college), we both changed drastically. In order to survive mentally and emotionally Al's terrible verbal attacks, I grew very guarded, and alot stronger to malicious intentions than she has. I can deal with stuff more than she can. And she explained that she didn't have to deal with that shyt, so she isn't like me at all. Aparenlty when I dont even realize it I say things that upset her. Ugh, dammit ... Im the queen of saying stuff the people interpert in the worst of ways. I love my sister. And I want her to be happy thats all, cause even though I have some drama here and there. Im content with my life. She isn't, and I would give up everything to help her find that peace.
Well Im off I need icecream, chocolate or some other endorphine provider. LOL aiight later skaters
~Micha~