so push rewind, just in time, thank anybody.. its just the way that you are..
*heaves a weighted sigh*
i dont know what to do.
GAHHHH this pisses me off.. i want to be honest, but i'm afraid that if i am, it will ruin everything, and i'll get over it...
i should probably just scream out everything in his face and then be anti social.
*translation* confess and be honest about my feelings and then pretend it never happened.
but then it would suck on everyone's end.
or i should do something highly dramatic and then explain it later and THEN be anti social.
or i could like explain everything but insist that it doesnt matter and then act normal...
..or i could just shut the fuck up and keep everyone happy.
cause like i'll just cause trouble, and i think he might be happy this time..
WHY does this always happen? WHY?
..or i could just be patient and wait things out. but thats what i did LAST time, and look where it got me! he actually cares about the girl this time... and if it works out, its gonna last, i know it.
i dont even think i even mean that much to him anyway, even like as a friend! i'm not really like one of his closer friends.. i dont think.. well who knows.
BAH!! FUCK IT! i'll see how things progress.. and if they dont, then maybe i'll be honest, and like if they do, i'll keep my damn mouth shut.. i'm not going to ruin this for him.. its like perfect..
NOW I REMEMBER WHY I HATE GUYS!!