Oh sadness

Dec 12, 2005 17:53

So right now I'm packing...it's quite depressing.  I don't want to leave.  I love it here too much.  I'll be leaving Mimi, Kiki, Kara, Jasen, D, Nick, Nikki, Fred, Kyle...everyone.  I hope nothing changes when we all get back, but I know that things will change, they always do.  But once I move back home for break, I get to work and make money.  That makes me happy.  I need to start saving my money, and when we get back to school, I'm going to apply at Target and hopefully get a job.  Plus, they don't have a piercing policy.  Yippee!  Then once I start saving money, Mimi, Jasen, Nick, and I can all get our own place together.  No living with bitchy roomates, and smoking inside not out in the cold.  I can't wait.

I'm happy for my parents.  The divorce money finally came out of my moms 401k for my dad.  He is really happy about that.  Then mom gets to take out a loan to fix up the house.  Mom is going to make it look so cute.  I know it.  Then, with Dad having his money, he will be financially set.  It makes me happy that he is happy.

Nicole, I'm sorry about our fight a few days ago.  Its just you really hurt my feelings when we were at D's.  And don't tell mom that you were pissed because I pulled your hair....you hit me first.  Yea I bet it did embarress you in front of everyone but how do you think I felt?  Once you hit me, I was instantly sick to my stomach.  I thought you grew out of the childish stage of hitting...but then again I remember that you are still 14.  I'm not trying to be mean, its just how I feel.

Ashley, my little sister.  I wish we were closer.  But I don't know what is wrong with her.  She is really chemically imbalanced, and she is mean as hell.  Maybe Dad is right, maybe she is bipolar.  Wow, I hate it sometimes.  Hopefully while I'm there, I'll try and straighten her up, because I won't put up with that shit.

Rick, I'm sorry that we couldn't be friends.  If you weren't such a fucking asshole, then everything would be back to normal.  But nope you fucked yourself over again.  Way to go.  I have to no sympathy for you anymore.  I will never talk to you ever again, and all the memories between us are gone.  From this point on, I've never even met you.  I hope your happy.

Kara, oh my beautiful sister.  Whom I will love forever.  Just remember, you don't always have to have someone.  You will always have me.  I hope that is good enough.  Just remember, I will always truly love you.

Mimi, my bestest!  I love you too.  You are the greatest.  Its going to be hell without you this break!  But we both need to work, and when we get back from break...SHOPPING SPREE!!!!!  So we will be looking hott hott hott...well more so then we already are (^^*)

Kiki, my other bestest!  I love you too too!  LOL.  I'm going to be over at your house a lot.  Christopher <3 and I will be over and we will come get you and go to concerts!  Wooo!  You + me = in mosh pit.  LOL.

Oh, Christopher Howard Lee...where I do begin?  You and your cuteness...which I totally love.  Don't be depressed.  I love you, doesn't that make you happy?   Just keep in there, everything will work out to your benefit, and I will be right here for you.  Don't you forget that.  Plus I miss you terribly already!

Oh, guess what!?  I stopped taking my prozac.  I don't need it.  I have friends now, LOL.  Actually I'll be fine without it.  I just need to start drinking Green Tea to get my caffeine to wake myself up so I don't sleep all the damn time!  Oh lazy Michi.

Oh poo, I woke up this morning with my monroe fucking stuck inside my lip.  It hurt like a bitch to get that thing back out.  So now my poor lip is so swollen.  It looks like someone punched me.  Tehehe.

So this is my goal...I know its going to sound cheesy...but I think it is good.  I'm going to tone up...okay...loss weight...and put my picture onto Suicide Girls for modeling...ya ya, I know that is retarded and I won't get it, but hey its a possibility that I could.

Hmm...anything else I'd like to add?  Oh Miss Nicole Tucker.  I'm glad we had that talk a few days ago.  I hope that we do keep in touch and actually become friends again like as in hang out again.  It would be nice.

Alright, I'm done with this silly entry.  I want everyone to have a great holiday!  I love you and I will miss you all so much!  Don't forget it!

<3Michi

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