Settling down
Today, I woke up feeling much more peaceful and content, and for once, WELL rested.
My anxiety about 200 residents moving into MY building, and being in charge of all of it, has virtually disappeared. I was hired, I can do this job, and I can do it very well. There will be times I need help and times small mistakes will be made, but damnit, people will LOVE living here. It WILL be a community, and safe and fun and just plain wonderful! This is MY chance, folks.
My main part is supervising the RA's, and every single one of them is a WONDERFUL person and an amazing individual who is bright, creative, fun, and spunky. They know what is *Right* are developing GALLONS as people, and I am utterly proud and reliant on them and their skills. Sometimes I see places that there need to be change, and I am pleased that I am the agent of that change.
Once Graduate School starts, I will be in my daily swing of things, always comforting, with adventures as usual :) MY Birthday is NEXT week, old, but happy ;) :-D
I miss my home friends SO much it hurts, but life here keeps me busy. I am also missing my OTHER half, my favorite one, the only one for me. He is better than I could have ever asked for or imagined. He is everything to me and I want to be the best I can be around my Phil. I have met a lot of people, and many never rose to my high expectations, but, without even TRYING, Phil blows almost every single person I've ever met out of the water, in this modest, humble, on the sidelines, not the center of attention way.
I'm not sure exactly how my life is going to be or change in the next two years as a person, and I know I will grow a lot, but one thing I am SURE and 100% positive about is the real true Love I wasn't expecting and never knew to truly believe in. Before, I've always compromised, on what I know see was a LOT, thinking it was part of the deal. I never 100% thought any two people could complement each other and their interest this well. I didnt know to look for something I didnt believe existed. That happiness is on a DIFFERENT LEVEL in comparison. I've never, a single moment, doubted that Phil was the one for me, or that, in any way, any moment of my life wouldnt be better with him by side. I am truly lucky and appreciate this wonderful part of who I am and who I always want to be. I honestly, never believed people like this existed, it's BETTER than my imagination. To be blunt, it SCARES me how well everything is, but I have absolutely no doubts.
I hope that addresses any concerns about my happiness with Phil or our plans <3
My anxiety about 200 residents moving into MY building, and being in charge of all of it, has virtually disappeared. I was hired, I can do this job, and I can do it very well. There will be times I need help and times small mistakes will be made, but damnit, people will LOVE living here. It WILL be a community, and safe and fun and just plain wonderful! This is MY chance, folks.
My main part is supervising the RA's, and every single one of them is a WONDERFUL person and an amazing individual who is bright, creative, fun, and spunky. They know what is *Right* are developing GALLONS as people, and I am utterly proud and reliant on them and their skills. Sometimes I see places that there need to be change, and I am pleased that I am the agent of that change.
Once Graduate School starts, I will be in my daily swing of things, always comforting, with adventures as usual :) MY Birthday is NEXT week, old, but happy ;) :-D
I miss my home friends SO much it hurts, but life here keeps me busy. I am also missing my OTHER half, my favorite one, the only one for me. He is better than I could have ever asked for or imagined. He is everything to me and I want to be the best I can be around my Phil. I have met a lot of people, and many never rose to my high expectations, but, without even TRYING, Phil blows almost every single person I've ever met out of the water, in this modest, humble, on the sidelines, not the center of attention way.
I'm not sure exactly how my life is going to be or change in the next two years as a person, and I know I will grow a lot, but one thing I am SURE and 100% positive about is the real true Love I wasn't expecting and never knew to truly believe in. Before, I've always compromised, on what I know see was a LOT, thinking it was part of the deal. I never 100% thought any two people could complement each other and their interest this well. I didnt know to look for something I didnt believe existed. That happiness is on a DIFFERENT LEVEL in comparison. I've never, a single moment, doubted that Phil was the one for me, or that, in any way, any moment of my life wouldnt be better with him by side. I am truly lucky and appreciate this wonderful part of who I am and who I always want to be. I honestly, never believed people like this existed, it's BETTER than my imagination. To be blunt, it SCARES me how well everything is, but I have absolutely no doubts.
I hope that addresses any concerns about my happiness with Phil or our plans <3