im still alive
I havn't written in this thing for a week (a new record i think). I have attempted to a few times but it has either got erased at the last minute or i have written a whole entry and decided it was utter crap and just deleted it all together. Yet again i have nothing to say.
This weekend was quite interesting. I was freaked that my mom would have no trust in me by the end of it but it turns out she does. This morning she was going on about how much she trusted me. Go me. That is all i have to say about that.
I didn't call my Dad once this weekend. Fuck me. I always dig myself into this hole. I dont want to call him and dissapoint him and say im not going so i avoid him. Thats what i am, fucking avodant.
I hate my therapist now by the way. I went to her on tuesday and i wanted to get out the whole session. Then on wednesday i went to tutoring and my fucking tutor wouldn't let me go (we were running over by about 30 minutes at this point) and i seriously was about to gouge her eyeballs out with my pencil and tell her i was leaving. I felt so itchy inside like i couldnt sit still or i would go insane..I am definately not farmiliar with that feeling.
I have a new addiction. Vice City. Goddamit.
I have a question. If a guy has a girlfriend and she doesn't want to do much sexually with him (not that she doesnt like him, but like she just isnt comfortable doing them at this point in time), does that mean he should dump her? I personally dont think so. If he likes her enough he would respect her wishes not to do this.
I am severly sorry for the excessive use of "fuck" in this entry.
School is tomorrow. Fuck
This weekend was quite interesting. I was freaked that my mom would have no trust in me by the end of it but it turns out she does. This morning she was going on about how much she trusted me. Go me. That is all i have to say about that.
I didn't call my Dad once this weekend. Fuck me. I always dig myself into this hole. I dont want to call him and dissapoint him and say im not going so i avoid him. Thats what i am, fucking avodant.
I hate my therapist now by the way. I went to her on tuesday and i wanted to get out the whole session. Then on wednesday i went to tutoring and my fucking tutor wouldn't let me go (we were running over by about 30 minutes at this point) and i seriously was about to gouge her eyeballs out with my pencil and tell her i was leaving. I felt so itchy inside like i couldnt sit still or i would go insane..I am definately not farmiliar with that feeling.
I have a new addiction. Vice City. Goddamit.
I have a question. If a guy has a girlfriend and she doesn't want to do much sexually with him (not that she doesnt like him, but like she just isnt comfortable doing them at this point in time), does that mean he should dump her? I personally dont think so. If he likes her enough he would respect her wishes not to do this.
I am severly sorry for the excessive use of "fuck" in this entry.
School is tomorrow. Fuck