new locale
hey journal, i'm too sleepy to update, but i'm willing to try. ok, first and foremost, i'm in a new locale. my loft apt is sweet and furnished. all that's missing is a tv, stereo, and food & beer--so maybe it's not quite furnished, but i have a huge bed w/dressers and accessories, 2 sofas, and a dining table. as you can see, i have a long way to go. my gf has been like rar (that's a gross fucking understatement, trust me!), but i'm sure i've been getting on her nerves lately as well. i know why i've been short--no money and lack of sleep. i suspect i know why she's been a bitch most of the time (frustration and lack of qt), plus she may be subconsciously worried about her grandmother. anywayz, i still love her and vice versa...the next goal is fixing up my apt. i'm currently saving up for a big-screen tv. in the meantime, i have all this other stuff to buy: dishes, appliances, bathroom stuff, cleaning stuff, trash cans, ice trays, rugs, etc. this is not including groceries! whoever said moving is expensive knew what they were talking about. i'll be alright though, miamore will be ok also once i put this loving on her. or at least i hope cuz i'm not used to having a bitchy gf (not bitchy everyday). sometimes i wish she was older, but then she wouldn't be the person i fell in love with. i don't know...i'm just not into alot of horse-playing b/c i'm focused on getting my house in order, moving forward professionally, and finishing my college degree; not to say that i don't enjoy lots of carefree fun, but for me taking care of business comes first. I've never had a more serious disposition in my life... i must be getting old (i'm approaching 30). i see things differently and i try to be patient b/c i know my gf is only 19 and it shows in some of her behavior, but for the most part i'm worried that i come off as this old fart who doesn't want to have fun (which is not true, it's just that there's a time and place for everything). i don't know journal and i'm too tired to care right now. more to come later...