Thank you. It helps to use live journal as an outlet for... well, everything :) As painful as the process has been so far, I have been feeling more alive.
*hugs you* I'm always here if you want to talk. Even at 3:33 in the AM.
We need to get you back to yourself, whomever that may be. The key to which I feel is removing the major stresses in your life that are leading you to "split."
I have considered before the implications of your personality who interacts with me being a fragment of who you are... It doesn't seem very realistic in that your current personality seems to be the one in control the majority of the time. I would say you - this you - is the core of you - rather than a fragment >_>
*hugs you* I'm always here to support you in whatever you do. So long as I get to wear my goofy hat and smile while I do it :D
So i have a goofy hat and smile now huh!? AND I suppose you were lying when you said these pants don't make me look fat!?
All kidding aside, I'm pretty sure the man in the sky broke the mold after he made me... the proposition of other people walking around who act like me is a scary thought #_#
terrifying really! O_O
You are in control Regina. You just have some quirky tendencies is all >_>
determining who you are is an organic process. it's bound not to be simple, and PTSD wouldn't make it simpler. as long as it is working progress, though, you're on your way.
what is the scary thing you have to do?
also, perhaps finding a friend to have a beer and lose a filter with may help. a little bit unfiltered bombast may be cathartic. ( just not rycheck; you guys will probably get drunk and make out or something. ;) )
I just feel like... a child, at times. I guess I am a child at times. I don't like being a child. I didn't like being a child when I WAS a child, I certainly don't like it now. I feel overwhelmed, I feel panicked, and my flight mode is kicking in. I don't usually experience flight OR fight mode...
And my thoughts are jumbled, so I apologize if my reply is unfocused ^^
I guess to say I HAVE to do something that scares me is not quite accurate. I feel I owe it to my collective self to do something I find daunting. I'm not exactly in a position in which I can safely share everything going on in my head, unfortunately :( Not on anything that can be tracked, anyway. Wee.
There's really no telling what might happen if I drink while I'm on Prozac ^^
Everyone is daunted and overwhelmed at times. Personally, I find it calming to make sure I'm taking care of business, however small a step it is. As long as I'm doing something about whatever is causing a problem, I feel like it's just a matter of method before it's all sorted out.
Just think. What do you need to do? If it's a step that too big, break it down into smaller steps, and keep breaking it down until the steps are individually manageable, and then take care of it.
Worried about being tracked? Why, that is PTSD. ;) [not trying to make light of it. well. technically i am. but it's to get a smile out] are you ex-enlisted or something like that?
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Life is weird.
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We need to get you back to yourself, whomever that may be. The key to which I feel is removing the major stresses in your life that are leading you to "split."
I have considered before the implications of your personality who interacts with me being a fragment of who you are... It doesn't seem very realistic in that your current personality seems to be the one in control the majority of the time. I would say you - this you - is the core of you - rather than a fragment >_>
*hugs you* I'm always here to support you in whatever you do. So long as I get to wear my goofy hat and smile while I do it :D
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You make me feel strong enough to take control of my own life. You have no idea how huge that is to me. I need/want more friends like you.
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So i have a goofy hat and smile now huh!? AND I suppose you were lying when you said these pants don't make me look fat!?
All kidding aside, I'm pretty sure the man in the sky broke the mold after he made me... the proposition of other people walking around who act like me is a scary thought #_#
terrifying really! O_O
You are in control Regina. You just have some quirky tendencies is all >_>
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it's bound not to be simple, and PTSD wouldn't make it simpler.
as long as it is working progress, though, you're on your way.
what is the scary thing you have to do?
also, perhaps finding a friend to have a beer and lose a filter with may help. a little bit unfiltered bombast may be cathartic.
( just not rycheck; you guys will probably get drunk and make out or something. ;) )
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And my thoughts are jumbled, so I apologize if my reply is unfocused ^^
I guess to say I HAVE to do something that scares me is not quite accurate. I feel I owe it to my collective self to do something I find daunting. I'm not exactly in a position in which I can safely share everything going on in my head, unfortunately :( Not on anything that can be tracked, anyway. Wee.
There's really no telling what might happen if I drink while I'm on Prozac ^^
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Just think. What do you need to do? If it's a step that too big, break it down into smaller steps, and keep breaking it down until the steps are individually manageable, and then take care of it.
Worried about being tracked? Why, that is PTSD. ;) [not trying to make light of it. well. technically i am. but it's to get a smile out] are you ex-enlisted or something like that?
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