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two things i would like to comment on...
she felt things very deeply
and
this diesease will make your heart explode
i never know weather to post in my communities, or in my own journal, so i somtimes crosspost. but enough people read this journal, and i comment enough on other girls... its all good
i love matt. and i dont really care anymore about not saying. imean, we did say we wouldnt say it till we were together in person. but thats stupid right. i mean, it best to say it for the first time face to face. but i dont care. i wont say it to him... but i love him.
i believe that people fall in love all of the time. but weather you choose to acctually fall or not... i haved loved many boys, but its weather you choose to grasp it and hang on weather you remember it.
i "she felt things very deeply"
i just read a post and these words were said about a girl who had died this year. it wasnt said why she died, but it that she "felt things very deeply" that makes me so sad. cause, i know i feel things very deeply. and how do you not. i know i am over emotional. and that bothers me a lot... cause it scares me, and i dont want to die. and right now, i dont want to die... and i havent for a long time. which makes me happy. but i am sad all of the time. and most days these days it just seems alomst impossible to make it through the day. i just want to sit in my bed... and curl in a ball. maybe i just need a day off. maybe i just need to get seriously fucked up for a few days, and forget about life. yeah, i think thats what ill do. im tired of feeling things too deeply.
"this desease will make your heart explode."
on this one, i gotta wonder. in what sense it was ment. the sadness, the heart ache, the pain of never feeling like you are good enough...
or literally. cause the past few days... my heart is going to explode. it has ulcers.
soto grabbed my hip last night. i think he was tickling me or something. and he held onto my hip. and stopped. he was like. what the fuck is that? i said, thats my fat hip. more diologue was exchanged about how not fat i am, but hes making it up.
later, we were talking and i was suddenly aware that he was staring at my arm. so i shot out "i have such fat arms" so that he wouldnt say something about it first... he looked at me and said. ha, i was just about to say how skinny your arms are...
why do people lie. im fat.
she felt things very deeply
and
this diesease will make your heart explode
i never know weather to post in my communities, or in my own journal, so i somtimes crosspost. but enough people read this journal, and i comment enough on other girls... its all good
i love matt. and i dont really care anymore about not saying. imean, we did say we wouldnt say it till we were together in person. but thats stupid right. i mean, it best to say it for the first time face to face. but i dont care. i wont say it to him... but i love him.
i believe that people fall in love all of the time. but weather you choose to acctually fall or not... i haved loved many boys, but its weather you choose to grasp it and hang on weather you remember it.
i "she felt things very deeply"
i just read a post and these words were said about a girl who had died this year. it wasnt said why she died, but it that she "felt things very deeply" that makes me so sad. cause, i know i feel things very deeply. and how do you not. i know i am over emotional. and that bothers me a lot... cause it scares me, and i dont want to die. and right now, i dont want to die... and i havent for a long time. which makes me happy. but i am sad all of the time. and most days these days it just seems alomst impossible to make it through the day. i just want to sit in my bed... and curl in a ball. maybe i just need a day off. maybe i just need to get seriously fucked up for a few days, and forget about life. yeah, i think thats what ill do. im tired of feeling things too deeply.
"this desease will make your heart explode."
on this one, i gotta wonder. in what sense it was ment. the sadness, the heart ache, the pain of never feeling like you are good enough...
or literally. cause the past few days... my heart is going to explode. it has ulcers.
soto grabbed my hip last night. i think he was tickling me or something. and he held onto my hip. and stopped. he was like. what the fuck is that? i said, thats my fat hip. more diologue was exchanged about how not fat i am, but hes making it up.
later, we were talking and i was suddenly aware that he was staring at my arm. so i shot out "i have such fat arms" so that he wouldnt say something about it first... he looked at me and said. ha, i was just about to say how skinny your arms are...
why do people lie. im fat.