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I don't think I've ever felt this depth of depression before. I had that 'super power' of motivating myself...but now it's like I seem outgoing, but it's so hollow to me. I have lost the base of my happiness. I've lost that power to be positive. I hate negativity..it's so annoying and it makes people look weak and i don't like looking/feeling weak. i'm not myself. i'm afraid i will never be the same again. I used to always see alternatives if one plan failed...there would always be a way to make things work. now i feel like it's a hopeless cause. i used to be a really good worker. I used to be the one that really cared.
i know i have people to take care of me. i hate being 'needy.' it's not my style. this whole sense of emotion, this feeling, the state of mind i'm in seems so foreign to me. i don't know how to deal with it. it's like the worst type of depression. i feel like a ghost. i feel like everything that everyone says now is a lie. what did i do wrong? what am i doing wrong?
I feel like my mind has aged 30 years. I can't concentrate anymore. I haven't eaten much for two weeks. (and it's definitely looking noticeable).
nothing is right...nothing will be the same. i want to quit my job. i want to quit everything.
i know i have people to take care of me. i hate being 'needy.' it's not my style. this whole sense of emotion, this feeling, the state of mind i'm in seems so foreign to me. i don't know how to deal with it. it's like the worst type of depression. i feel like a ghost. i feel like everything that everyone says now is a lie. what did i do wrong? what am i doing wrong?
I feel like my mind has aged 30 years. I can't concentrate anymore. I haven't eaten much for two weeks. (and it's definitely looking noticeable).
nothing is right...nothing will be the same. i want to quit my job. i want to quit everything.