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i love how everything is right now. it's so far from perfect, but i'm not in any way striving for perfection in my life. the only thing i was concerned about is now at rest. if only i had you at my side to tell me that it would have been all right either way, then it would have been significantly less stressful. not only that, but how hard it would have been to break the news to you when we haven't talked in so long. fortunately, everything worked itself out.
i took my senior pictures yesterday. it was such an odd thing, especially taking the cap and gown pictures. it was so surreal, thinking about the fact that i'm a senior now. this is the last year i have to form or reform friendships that i want to keep after high school is over. i'm doing the best i can, keeping everyone as close as i can. i love every one of the people i call friends so dearly, even though i do a shitty job of showing it. i can only hope that they'll know.
i spent the night with ari and shayleen last night. we attempted to star trip, which was flop thanks to the clouds, but it was entertaining nonetheless. we spent so much time in ari's driveway, knowing bugs had to be gnawing away at us, and trying to find something to do. eventually, we just went back inside and watched jumper. which was incredibly odd, by the way. we didn't do very much at all, but i really enjoyed it.
i've hung out with aubry and katie a few times lately, and it's been extravagant. playing apples to apples, singing rap songs, sucking it up on rock band,. and having girly talks with them is so very fun. we have to finish tombstone! and we have to go to the zoo!
adam left yesterday. i wish i could have said goodbye to him. i wanted to wait to see him until i finished the painting, but i apparently waited too long. i miss him.
i want someone to cuddle with. no emotional attachments. no relationship. no bullshit. just someone to cuddle with and kiss.
everything has changed so much.
i took my senior pictures yesterday. it was such an odd thing, especially taking the cap and gown pictures. it was so surreal, thinking about the fact that i'm a senior now. this is the last year i have to form or reform friendships that i want to keep after high school is over. i'm doing the best i can, keeping everyone as close as i can. i love every one of the people i call friends so dearly, even though i do a shitty job of showing it. i can only hope that they'll know.
i spent the night with ari and shayleen last night. we attempted to star trip, which was flop thanks to the clouds, but it was entertaining nonetheless. we spent so much time in ari's driveway, knowing bugs had to be gnawing away at us, and trying to find something to do. eventually, we just went back inside and watched jumper. which was incredibly odd, by the way. we didn't do very much at all, but i really enjoyed it.
i've hung out with aubry and katie a few times lately, and it's been extravagant. playing apples to apples, singing rap songs, sucking it up on rock band,. and having girly talks with them is so very fun. we have to finish tombstone! and we have to go to the zoo!
adam left yesterday. i wish i could have said goodbye to him. i wanted to wait to see him until i finished the painting, but i apparently waited too long. i miss him.
i want someone to cuddle with. no emotional attachments. no relationship. no bullshit. just someone to cuddle with and kiss.
everything has changed so much.