Comments | mi3fit: unrestorable corruption.

mi3fit

unrestorable corruption.

Jul 21, 2010 20:52

I used to have so much, only I didn't realize that. My life is an unending repetition of shame and misery. The happiness always came unexpected like a beautiful stranger asking for direction. But she never stayed too long, she would always leave me feeling confused and even betrayed sometimes ( Read more... )

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frozenfreebird9 July 27 2010, 03:18:33 UTC

Reading this, I desperatly search for words to tell you that you can make it through. But the truth is...I don't know anymore. Don't know if either of us can make it through. You're a stranger and all, but we have a kindred spirit....so, to avoid saying "everything will be ok"...I'll just say- you're not alone.

mi3fit July 27 2010, 03:41:34 UTC

thanks.. what's going on? i can't even imagine what being a mom would be like at your age.. i hope your boyfriend's supportive?

frozenfreebird9 July 27 2010, 16:15:26 UTC

No, he actually has been really sucky through the whole thing. We are barely even together anymore. It's been really tough. I only have 7 weeks til her due date and I am getting really scared! It's a hard reality. But I already love her so much.
I wish I had a friend like you around. Someone who understands the overbearing emotional times.

mi3fit July 29 2010, 04:41:28 UTC

I hate the fact that I am suggestiing this.. but is it too late for the.. A word?

I am so sorry, I can only imagine how much you love her. But it's going to be really difficult for you raise her alone.. My dad raised me and my sister by himself and it took his life away I think.. You are so young, you have a life to live out no matter how unsatisfying it has proven to be so far. And I am afraid the child might be the biggest challenge you'll ever face and I am not sure if you're ready. There seem to be other challenges in your life that need to be faced first.

I am sorry if I just went way out of my line. I was never a mother and I never will be so it's bullshit if I tell you that I know how you feel. But all I can say is that, I've watched a lot of broken family and I came from one. And my intuition tells me that if you do this, it's going to be a long hard journey for you.

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