partying in astoria
i am deejaying this party. i feel slightly intoxicated and under influence. i hate smoking weed. i said some dumb things. but i think im having one of best times of my life. these last few days have been soo good to me. just played firework by the whitest boy alive. good song.
wow i thought this entry was going to be deep and reflectory (not a word) but this is fine too i guess. my lj needs one of lighter ones. hmm i like writing and smoking cigarettes. i feel like zach braff in garden state where everything and everyones is blurred. i am worried but being prepared makes it easier to swallow. it's a pity that i have met her. my life finally brings me one of the nicest, smartest and prettiest girl to me when my life is at a point where i'm about to lose everything. whether i go into a rehab or become a vegabond, there will be a significant days, months, even perhaps years before i can see her again. what a shame. perhaps this is a lesson that i've been taught over and over again; that i cannot fall in for somebody so quickly. but what stops me when the feeling is so real? i tried denying it, but what is point of preserving something which cannot be preserved? i shall live in the moments, (not "FOR" the moment) this maybe what i've asked all along: a different life. a unique life experiences. but frankly i'd like to be finished with life lessons. people are leaving, i must stop writing for now. this entry is so pointless and stupid. why do i get so negative sometimes? aw! somebody shut me up already..
wow i thought this entry was going to be deep and reflectory (not a word) but this is fine too i guess. my lj needs one of lighter ones. hmm i like writing and smoking cigarettes. i feel like zach braff in garden state where everything and everyones is blurred. i am worried but being prepared makes it easier to swallow. it's a pity that i have met her. my life finally brings me one of the nicest, smartest and prettiest girl to me when my life is at a point where i'm about to lose everything. whether i go into a rehab or become a vegabond, there will be a significant days, months, even perhaps years before i can see her again. what a shame. perhaps this is a lesson that i've been taught over and over again; that i cannot fall in for somebody so quickly. but what stops me when the feeling is so real? i tried denying it, but what is point of preserving something which cannot be preserved? i shall live in the moments, (not "FOR" the moment) this maybe what i've asked all along: a different life. a unique life experiences. but frankly i'd like to be finished with life lessons. people are leaving, i must stop writing for now. this entry is so pointless and stupid. why do i get so negative sometimes? aw! somebody shut me up already..