Mar 13, 2005 19:40
it just seems like nothing makes sense anymore. no, im not bitching about my break up anymore, it doesnt bother me anymore because i know i was in a hurtful, one-way relationship anyways, but it just seems like everything is being so shaken up and i dont know where im going.
college, where do i go? im gonna lose 95% of my friends and be thrown in somewhere i dont know in 5 months.
love -- why bother? or should i? ill need time, thats no lie, but time's running out. i dont know if i want to change everything so soon and lose something that ive had for so long that really meant something to me. and once again, its not the person youre thinking of.
and on a little side note, hockey. its been such a big part of my life for 13 years, and now ill never play real competitive hockey again. it does bother me that i cant play except in intramural and bar leagues
my family's is fine, thank god, its one of the only things that is strong and keeps me going. that was something else i learned from kairos haha.
thats all. ive been stuck on the last page of this 8 page thing for the past 7 hours. later.
saw hitch last night with clare and kristen... funny movie, made me want to go out and try those moves haha