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kairos was the shit. i had a great time with a bunch of kick ass dudes (luke, tabone, grimaldi mainly) and i realized a few things, although very deep, that id like to share:
1. im actually very religious and spiritual; i never realized it before that even though i would barely even consider myself a practising christian, i still live it
2. there are other people who im with at school on a daily basis who i never even see the tip of the iceberg of their life, and being able to see that these people are so much more than whats on the outside was a really powerful way of showing that i cant be so self-centered sometimes
3. "the worst mistake is the one from which we learn nothing from" (yeah that was luke's tagline, but it rings oh so true considering recent events)
4. there are so many other people who care about you and people who are willing to care about you that when someone so close to you hurts you, takes advantage of your trust, and makes you feel like the lowest form of crap they arent worth your time, energy, and friendship back...
...its amazing how this time i really just dont care anymore about her except the fact that i feel like i truly wasted 17 months of effort on someone who really proved they didnt care and that there are so many other girls that would have killed for what she had. if she did care, then why all the cheating and why this new guy after not even a week? i dont know why i care, its not like you ever did in the first place.
college party last night... now THAT was the shitznittle
THE STARTING LINE
APRIL 15 at INFINITY
me, matt, nick, nick d, jamie, kendra, tim?, kristine, katie, heather, kristen, clare
who else is going?
1. im actually very religious and spiritual; i never realized it before that even though i would barely even consider myself a practising christian, i still live it
2. there are other people who im with at school on a daily basis who i never even see the tip of the iceberg of their life, and being able to see that these people are so much more than whats on the outside was a really powerful way of showing that i cant be so self-centered sometimes
3. "the worst mistake is the one from which we learn nothing from" (yeah that was luke's tagline, but it rings oh so true considering recent events)
4. there are so many other people who care about you and people who are willing to care about you that when someone so close to you hurts you, takes advantage of your trust, and makes you feel like the lowest form of crap they arent worth your time, energy, and friendship back...
...its amazing how this time i really just dont care anymore about her except the fact that i feel like i truly wasted 17 months of effort on someone who really proved they didnt care and that there are so many other girls that would have killed for what she had. if she did care, then why all the cheating and why this new guy after not even a week? i dont know why i care, its not like you ever did in the first place.
college party last night... now THAT was the shitznittle
THE STARTING LINE
APRIL 15 at INFINITY
me, matt, nick, nick d, jamie, kendra, tim?, kristine, katie, heather, kristen, clare
who else is going?