Caught In The Middle
You love Brendon Urie so much you shriek like a teenager whenever you see him, the same way you fangirl over comic book artist Mervin Malonzo simply because he has killer artwork. You never got over how at one point I hated your dog so much for getting all your attention because he was dying and you kept using it against me whenever you can.
That's just the way you are.
I loved you nevertheless.
Loved.
The past.
I think about our relationship and I find it so hard to blur out all the negativity that went on for four years. The almost daily bickering and arguments over petty things that always gets blown out of proportion because of my stubbornness and ill temper coupled with your refusal to back down pretty much sums up what kind of relationship we had. Until now I still can't figure out nor understand why we lasted so long.
Why we even bothered to stay together.
But now it's all over. It's been almost five months and I am honestly relieved that I am no longer with you.
Yet every now and then we get to talk. You send me text messages with inquiries you know I can't refuse to answer. You still know your way around me. I feel guilty for replying to your messages, knowing my girlfriend does not want me to talk to you anymore. At the same time, I also feel stupid in the end when you leave me hanging, when you just end the conversation without even properly ending it.
And I relive the old feelings of being your doormat.
I'm so glad we're through.
That's just the way you are.
I loved you nevertheless.
Loved.
The past.
I think about our relationship and I find it so hard to blur out all the negativity that went on for four years. The almost daily bickering and arguments over petty things that always gets blown out of proportion because of my stubbornness and ill temper coupled with your refusal to back down pretty much sums up what kind of relationship we had. Until now I still can't figure out nor understand why we lasted so long.
Why we even bothered to stay together.
But now it's all over. It's been almost five months and I am honestly relieved that I am no longer with you.
Yet every now and then we get to talk. You send me text messages with inquiries you know I can't refuse to answer. You still know your way around me. I feel guilty for replying to your messages, knowing my girlfriend does not want me to talk to you anymore. At the same time, I also feel stupid in the end when you leave me hanging, when you just end the conversation without even properly ending it.
And I relive the old feelings of being your doormat.
I'm so glad we're through.