Muse come hither...
Sometimes it's as if life doesn't have a point anymore, and during these times I find myself looking through every website that I know of. Although I'm running a bit short on words from my Muse (the muse of Romance and Love... whomever he or she may be...), I think that I've had an idea of what to write... but
It
always
escapes me.
You know the feeling that someone gets when you know what you're going to do, but
you
can't
write
it
down?
It's happening to me today, and it's been going on for a while, and well...
My 18th is this July... (the 28th, for those that ask), and I'm hoping to enjoy it to the fullest.
I might even upload all of my doodles onto DeviantArt, for all I know! Yet, so far... I'm not sure on what to do with my life.
So yes, back to the beginning (that dwindled away as I continued to speak my twisted mind onto this text area *rolls eyes*) -- I've just seen northangel27's journal, which ever so slowly caught my eye... and at once I felt bonded to her (whomever she may be). Missing Severus Snape is a biggie for me since I try to write him in my fics as the survivor character that ends up with a woman that feels strangely connected to him... and well... It's been a while (perhaps 3 years for me? -- *thinks about 5-last HP book*) that I fell in love with Severus (or Sev, if he let me call him that someday...).
True, he may feel disgust for himself (even prestige for his high education and the footsteps that he took away from his abusive home)... he may still be head over heels in love with Lily Potter (never Evans again since James captured her whole and securely to his chest *smiles softly*), and he might as well want to be dead for all we know -- but he will never tear himself out of my heart. I love every single thing about him -- from his snarky responses to his colleagues, his arched elegant, long and dark eyebrow (*melts in place*), his thin smirking lips (*giggles to self*), to his deep, intense, and disolving obsidian eyes... *wishes deep deep inside that he would embrace her*
As a whole he was a great man (dead or alive), and he did what he had to.
God, I love this man to the soul/sole of my body.
And that is why I will continue to write about him in his best light - despite being a double-spy and a great one at that... despite everyone's toss-away of a response... I will do so until the end. *Will remain faithful 'til the end*
*gives Sev a moment of silence*
Okay, so now that I'm over my chest-clenching feeling, I will continue on to my news:
I'm writing a novel (2, in fact), and I've been off of my fanfiction for quite a while (since January). Thus far, I've made up my mind that I can do most of these at once (whenever my Muse attacks me head on -- who ever he or she may be *sighs*). So yes, the one that's probably getting finished up first will be "Forced". Then after that, perhaps I will get in tune to finish my never-ending "Behind the Sketches" (My succeeding Severus/OC *beams*). And yes, that's about it.
Now, wasn't this my longest post ever?
Oh, yeah.... before I leave: I'm posting something new on my DeviantArt. It's all guys! *grins brightly* Well, it's all about boy expressions. I tried to put my dear Sev in it, but I haven't had the chance of overcoming his complicated visage (which Sempra does so well... *blushes*).
So yes, that's the end for now. :D
Thankies for reading, if you have... and please speak to me! *is lonely as crumbs in a bag of doritos that was thrown away*
~Meli
It
always
escapes me.
You know the feeling that someone gets when you know what you're going to do, but
you
can't
write
it
down?
It's happening to me today, and it's been going on for a while, and well...
My 18th is this July... (the 28th, for those that ask), and I'm hoping to enjoy it to the fullest.
I might even upload all of my doodles onto DeviantArt, for all I know! Yet, so far... I'm not sure on what to do with my life.
So yes, back to the beginning (that dwindled away as I continued to speak my twisted mind onto this text area *rolls eyes*) -- I've just seen northangel27's journal, which ever so slowly caught my eye... and at once I felt bonded to her (whomever she may be). Missing Severus Snape is a biggie for me since I try to write him in my fics as the survivor character that ends up with a woman that feels strangely connected to him... and well... It's been a while (perhaps 3 years for me? -- *thinks about 5-last HP book*) that I fell in love with Severus (or Sev, if he let me call him that someday...).
True, he may feel disgust for himself (even prestige for his high education and the footsteps that he took away from his abusive home)... he may still be head over heels in love with Lily Potter (never Evans again since James captured her whole and securely to his chest *smiles softly*), and he might as well want to be dead for all we know -- but he will never tear himself out of my heart. I love every single thing about him -- from his snarky responses to his colleagues, his arched elegant, long and dark eyebrow (*melts in place*), his thin smirking lips (*giggles to self*), to his deep, intense, and disolving obsidian eyes... *wishes deep deep inside that he would embrace her*
As a whole he was a great man (dead or alive), and he did what he had to.
God, I love this man to the soul/sole of my body.
And that is why I will continue to write about him in his best light - despite being a double-spy and a great one at that... despite everyone's toss-away of a response... I will do so until the end. *Will remain faithful 'til the end*
*gives Sev a moment of silence*
Okay, so now that I'm over my chest-clenching feeling, I will continue on to my news:
I'm writing a novel (2, in fact), and I've been off of my fanfiction for quite a while (since January). Thus far, I've made up my mind that I can do most of these at once (whenever my Muse attacks me head on -- who ever he or she may be *sighs*). So yes, the one that's probably getting finished up first will be "Forced". Then after that, perhaps I will get in tune to finish my never-ending "Behind the Sketches" (My succeeding Severus/OC *beams*). And yes, that's about it.
Now, wasn't this my longest post ever?
Oh, yeah.... before I leave: I'm posting something new on my DeviantArt. It's all guys! *grins brightly* Well, it's all about boy expressions. I tried to put my dear Sev in it, but I haven't had the chance of overcoming his complicated visage (which Sempra does so well... *blushes*).
So yes, that's the end for now. :D
Thankies for reading, if you have... and please speak to me! *is lonely as crumbs in a bag of doritos that was thrown away*
~Meli