Well
So, I got thinking about it, with Tiff moving LJs and whatnot, and Bunny doing her first real friends cut, as she said. And I thought "Oh, I wonder if anyone's done that "10 honest things" meme lately, I could use a bit of honesty in here for once." Then I realized 'oh wait, I don't actually need a meme for that.'
So here we go. A bit of honest in the form of anonymity.
1. You know what? I realized recently that I don't care. Really, I have no sympathy for you anymore. You disgust me. I'm tired of trying to care, when it's so obviously one-sided. You keep me around to satisfy your ego, and I won't do it anymore. Quite frankly, you're a fucking slut and while I don't hope you get your just desserts, I don't think I'll have any sympathy for you when you do.
2. You don't have any control over me anymore. My god that feels good. I'm so proud of myself for it. I wonder, though, if my need to say that actually proves that you do. I secretly wonder if you'd have the same effect that you did were you to start trying, though, and I think I'm afraid of the answer. I don't want you to have any power over me.
3. I love you. Seriously, you're like the mother mine doesn't act like. I know you'll know this is you, if you've taken the time to read this. It's not that I think you don't read, just that it's labelled as a meme, so I'm not sure you will XD But, yeah. I love you so much. You're one of the few people whose opinions really matter to me - I want your approval. I think that's why I come to you for advice so often. I'm amazed that nearly four years has gone by, too. I remember my freshman year, with us having "Only three more years!" as our mantra. Now I'm we're graduating, and where most kids would be wondering how their mom feels about it, most kids are concerned with how their mom will take their baby "leaving the nest", I'm honestly more curious what you're thinking about your Mezz finally escaping. Even though you're busy, I still know you care. I'm really, really looking forward to March. As much as I love D'espairsRay, would you believe I'm more excited about seeing you? I want you before my shows for a reason - you will be the start of my first real "adventure" (Otakon was just practice for this). I'd love to go to NYC with you while I'm up, too, because that'll be more firsts - my first time in my city of choice, ideally my first time seeing any kind of show, my first real "roadtrip" on my adventure. Honestly, I think you deserve my firsts like that more than anyone else.
You got a long one. I was thinking of you last night :)
4. It's such a shame that you're straight XD Seriously, you're one of the most intelligent people I have ever met. You're also very pretty, but I think you don't see that about yourself at all. Your intelligence, though, just blows me away. I don't think you see that about yourself, either. Your posts sound like you think you're of average intelligence, even a bit low-quality and strange. But you aren't! It's a shame that you see yourself that way, because you just completely rock. Intelligence is sexy, and you're good looking on top of it :) Don't think so lowly of yourself! Like I said, it's a shame you're straight. I was totally crushing on you for about a month after I met you. You're something else, you'll go far :)
5. I think you'll know this one is you, too. You are highly important to me, and I'm not sure how you got that important that quick. I adore you for your honesty. XD That just gave it away for sure. Anyhow, I adore it, although I do have my sensitive moments when it can make me cry. I'd rather you stay honest, though. Also, I miss you. I know you have a life and I am not complaining, I'm just letting you know that you are loved and missed. Also, you are somewhat intimidating. I'm not sure you know that. But you are. Sometimes I'm afraid I'm bothering you, and then I get all gloomy and think perhaps you only put up with me, perhaps you don't really like me very much. But then you IM me out of the blue, and I realize you do like me and that I am being silly - if you didn't like me, you'd tell me so XD
6. GOD I am so fucking sick of seeing you EVERYWHERE. This is why I am not in the habit of dating locally - I can't avoid them for a while to recover when things go badly D< Also, you're another one that I'm fucking sick of the hold you have on me.
7. God you are so cute. You're like my little sister. I love you so much, I feel like I need to protect you. Sometimes you grate my nerves, but I can't be upset at you for it, you're too damn cute! XD
8. I wish you knew just how naive you are. Whether I am or not is irrelevant, what's sad is that you're naive enough that I can see it despite my own naivety.
9. I'm glad we're on speaking terms again. Really, the way things were handled bothered me more than you know. I'm embarrassed by my actions, and glad that we're beyond them.
10. You know? You're kind of a bitch. I don't really like you very much, but you fascinate me. You're like a case-study, somehow.
That feels good. Not all of those people are on LJ, either.
So here we go. A bit of honest in the form of anonymity.
1. You know what? I realized recently that I don't care. Really, I have no sympathy for you anymore. You disgust me. I'm tired of trying to care, when it's so obviously one-sided. You keep me around to satisfy your ego, and I won't do it anymore. Quite frankly, you're a fucking slut and while I don't hope you get your just desserts, I don't think I'll have any sympathy for you when you do.
2. You don't have any control over me anymore. My god that feels good. I'm so proud of myself for it. I wonder, though, if my need to say that actually proves that you do. I secretly wonder if you'd have the same effect that you did were you to start trying, though, and I think I'm afraid of the answer. I don't want you to have any power over me.
3. I love you. Seriously, you're like the mother mine doesn't act like. I know you'll know this is you, if you've taken the time to read this. It's not that I think you don't read, just that it's labelled as a meme, so I'm not sure you will XD But, yeah. I love you so much. You're one of the few people whose opinions really matter to me - I want your approval. I think that's why I come to you for advice so often. I'm amazed that nearly four years has gone by, too. I remember my freshman year, with us having "Only three more years!" as our mantra. Now I'm we're graduating, and where most kids would be wondering how their mom feels about it, most kids are concerned with how their mom will take their baby "leaving the nest", I'm honestly more curious what you're thinking about your Mezz finally escaping. Even though you're busy, I still know you care. I'm really, really looking forward to March. As much as I love D'espairsRay, would you believe I'm more excited about seeing you? I want you before my shows for a reason - you will be the start of my first real "adventure" (Otakon was just practice for this). I'd love to go to NYC with you while I'm up, too, because that'll be more firsts - my first time in my city of choice, ideally my first time seeing any kind of show, my first real "roadtrip" on my adventure. Honestly, I think you deserve my firsts like that more than anyone else.
You got a long one. I was thinking of you last night :)
4. It's such a shame that you're straight XD Seriously, you're one of the most intelligent people I have ever met. You're also very pretty, but I think you don't see that about yourself at all. Your intelligence, though, just blows me away. I don't think you see that about yourself, either. Your posts sound like you think you're of average intelligence, even a bit low-quality and strange. But you aren't! It's a shame that you see yourself that way, because you just completely rock. Intelligence is sexy, and you're good looking on top of it :) Don't think so lowly of yourself! Like I said, it's a shame you're straight. I was totally crushing on you for about a month after I met you. You're something else, you'll go far :)
5. I think you'll know this one is you, too. You are highly important to me, and I'm not sure how you got that important that quick. I adore you for your honesty. XD That just gave it away for sure. Anyhow, I adore it, although I do have my sensitive moments when it can make me cry. I'd rather you stay honest, though. Also, I miss you. I know you have a life and I am not complaining, I'm just letting you know that you are loved and missed. Also, you are somewhat intimidating. I'm not sure you know that. But you are. Sometimes I'm afraid I'm bothering you, and then I get all gloomy and think perhaps you only put up with me, perhaps you don't really like me very much. But then you IM me out of the blue, and I realize you do like me and that I am being silly - if you didn't like me, you'd tell me so XD
6. GOD I am so fucking sick of seeing you EVERYWHERE. This is why I am not in the habit of dating locally - I can't avoid them for a while to recover when things go badly D< Also, you're another one that I'm fucking sick of the hold you have on me.
7. God you are so cute. You're like my little sister. I love you so much, I feel like I need to protect you. Sometimes you grate my nerves, but I can't be upset at you for it, you're too damn cute! XD
8. I wish you knew just how naive you are. Whether I am or not is irrelevant, what's sad is that you're naive enough that I can see it despite my own naivety.
9. I'm glad we're on speaking terms again. Really, the way things were handled bothered me more than you know. I'm embarrassed by my actions, and glad that we're beyond them.
10. You know? You're kind of a bitch. I don't really like you very much, but you fascinate me. You're like a case-study, somehow.
That feels good. Not all of those people are on LJ, either.