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Omg, last night was more arguing...lol it's getting rediculous. Ok, so the party was good. I had a good time until the last half hour...why? b/c thomas spent the last half hour dancing with his ex g/f. When he really didn't pay that much attention to me...I mean people were coming up to me and were like, that's bogus...um yeah. I was SO SHITTY. But we talked about it after I had calmed down. I just told him that I'm tired of him not thinking about things. That if I would never dance with someone for half an hour let alone an ex. That I feel like he takes me for granted and I told him straight out he is not the only guy I could be with...I have stiopped myself from flirting, from trying to get guys to like me, b/c I respect him and I deserve the same...but he cannot think that he's the only one b/c he needs to know I'm not someone he should take for granted. I mean Carl almost kissed me at the party last night! It was rediculous, he was so close to kissing me and I stopped the situation before anything could happen. Seriously. I told Thomas too, that seemed to get his interest. jerk lol. So in his p.o.v. he wasn't thinking about who to dance with he and jackie just ended up dancing for half an hour b/c she came up to him and asked him why he wasn't going to dance with her, and then she kept asking questions about the dance (b/c there was almost a fight). so that's why and he wasn't thinking that people were going to say something blah blah blah but that was the problem that he didnt' think...b/c he and Andy were pissed at each other and when Andy came and danced with me I felt bad. And another thing about Jackie is that I don't know if she knows he and I are together, so I don't know if she went to dance with him just to dance or b/c she wanted to petty...b/c a lot of people are like that. But we talked about it and he everythings good...he and I can never have a good weekend...always something has to make it bad. And friday was such a good time. We just hung out and watched a movie...I told him that too that I'm scared that I keep complaining about things and he's going to get tired of it. But we have to talk things out...and I told him how I wish the way he is in private with me that he could be that way all the time...why is it so difficult. bah, so that's my drama for the weekend...oh and I lied to Tina and told her the reason that I was mad was b/c Richard didn't show up...lol which I was dissappointed about but I don't want her to tell jackie that Nubia got pissed b/c I don't need to give that girl that sort of power over me. And Tina doesn't need to know about it either. So I should clean my room and do homework now...let's see if this week is productive. 