Disconnected
I feel like something is wrong with me. Maybe I have just slammed my head against my roommates top bunk far too many times. But sometimes I honestly think I'm losing it.
I just mindlessly tried to put a CD in my glasses case, and was confused when it wouldn't fit.
When I drive, I feel like I arrive without remembering any single part of the ride at all.
I can't for the life of me remember anything that I learned last year in any of my classes.
I fail to remember the names of any of my professors from the past.
When having conversations with people, I will ask them a question that I am genuinely interested to know the answer to, but somehow I forget to listen to them when they speak. And then I feel really horrible.
I could literally sit down in an empty room with nothing around me, and hours pass by like minutes.
Most days I feel like I am in a cloud.
The only problem is..
I have no clinical reason for being completely brainless.
Does that mean I'm just an airhead? Because I feel like my brain has disintegrated into nothingness.
On some days I think that all I have left is a beating heart to keep me going through the day. Everything else is just done mechanically.
I really wish I could control my wandering mind. I hate daydreaming and coming to my senses only after having missed half of a conversation I was in with someone. I truly wonder how much of my life I have actually been completely aware of.
When I stop being able to control my own mind.. will I become like Wall-E?
That wouldn't be so bad :)
I just mindlessly tried to put a CD in my glasses case, and was confused when it wouldn't fit.
When I drive, I feel like I arrive without remembering any single part of the ride at all.
I can't for the life of me remember anything that I learned last year in any of my classes.
I fail to remember the names of any of my professors from the past.
When having conversations with people, I will ask them a question that I am genuinely interested to know the answer to, but somehow I forget to listen to them when they speak. And then I feel really horrible.
I could literally sit down in an empty room with nothing around me, and hours pass by like minutes.
Most days I feel like I am in a cloud.
The only problem is..
I have no clinical reason for being completely brainless.
Does that mean I'm just an airhead? Because I feel like my brain has disintegrated into nothingness.
On some days I think that all I have left is a beating heart to keep me going through the day. Everything else is just done mechanically.
I really wish I could control my wandering mind. I hate daydreaming and coming to my senses only after having missed half of a conversation I was in with someone. I truly wonder how much of my life I have actually been completely aware of.
When I stop being able to control my own mind.. will I become like Wall-E?
That wouldn't be so bad :)