4.17.04
Wee, so last night was prom, it was exciting, to say the least. I went as Carries date (WOO!) My feet hurt from my shoes I wore at first but it was worth it!
There was a bit of complaining about prom, I understand it wasn't the best, given the situations for a few people but it seriously wasn't that bad. :)
I had oodles of fun with all of the people--Megan, Mary, Carrie,Rachel, Marissa, Helen, Victoria,Tara, Brittany, etc.--just everyone made it wonderful. I don't know all of them well but it was still splendid.
Last night was lots of fun, it was on so many levels..really helped me with getting dumped but I still feel crappy.
About this Aaron situation...I feel crappy for it..for so many reasons. One, now I fully understand what I did to him, even though I consider my reason to be a bit more legitimate, seeing as how he didn't really give one. I also feel crappy about it because maybe I just wasn't enough for him...I should have known I wasn't and that I never will be. I'll never be pretty enough, I'll never be smart enough, I'll never be religious; I'll just never be enough for him, or anyone. Perhaps, it's distance, I doubt it though. If it was distance, you wouldn't ask for a break, you'd want to stay together and not lose hope, which is why I'm guessing that he most likely got a girlfriend in England or just never stopped talking to the bitch here. If he did, that's his problem. Well, not exactly a problem...he's with someone who at least meets minimum standards (something I will never do again--sure I was fun for awhile but I suppose I got boring), and well, if he is, he's not worth anything if he can't stay monogamous.
I still love him though, a lot, even if my friends want to kill him; I doubt they'd understand. :(
Right now, I am pissed at him a bit too...not for breaking up with me, well kind of, but more so for doing it the day AFTER out 2 1/2 year anniversary and the day BEFORE prom. At least mine was a few weeks away from out anniversary. :(
I do kind of hope it works out though and we can be together again; I love him too much..but I doubt he even cares for me anymore.
Back to fun...everyone looked pretty tonight, everyone. :) I looked like a whore but I had a pretty date, so it was uber-spaß! I laughed a lot, it was great. This girl,
Victoria...
She made me laugh lots, not always on the outside, but on the inside...vanilla milkshake and bacon...a combination I will never forget. :)
I wanted to hug Megan lots but I didn't--I maybe should act on impulse more. Not keep everything to myself. It feels better. I wanted to hug Carrie too but she said I couldn't because she's a touchaphobe right now. GRR!
I took lts of pictures.
The waiter at Dennys was gay and fun, I liked him. :)
...I finally got a picture of Nathan!!!
Then Carrie came back and we went home....
When she dropped me off, she ran over my foot! Well, not exactly my foot but the whole back of my shoe, which si where my foot would have been, had it not had reflexes and slide to the front! I still love her though!
I love all my friends! They're spendiferioiusly wonderful people who can never be replaced--ever!!!!
So, to my friends:
I LOVE YOU
<3 Kris
P.S....I think Mr. Morgan and I are going to party in a bit..WOO!