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Hey its a long time since I've updated, mainly because of procrastination and the fact that I'm pretty confused of what I want to update in this journal. There are many things going on in my life, but where should I begin? And plus sometimes I think people don't really care about what I write here about my life. I go to livejournal just for the "comments" from friends. If I didn't want any comments, I'll go to my private journal and write my experiences there. So I try not writing entries which are boring and which noone would care about anyway. But just for today I'll just write about what I feel regardless of if anyone comments or not.
I know this probably sounds lame, but I really miss my best friend Tessy a LOT. Me and Her used to've all these looong conversations, and we used to gossip and make jokes and generally have lots of fun. But she has been gone for a month now, and she wont be back till August 24, and I wonder if she misses me too. These holidays are really boring, atleast last holidays were a bit fun because she was there and a couple of other friends were there too and I met new people, but these days I do nothing besides being on the computer the whole day, checking my email more than once and trying to make conversations with people who really don't want to talk. I play games too, but sometimes I just want human communication, someone I can talk to easily and someone who is genuinely interested in what I've to say.
Its not all bad, there is a guy who does that, his name is Adarsh, honestly he's one of the best guys I've ever met. He's really nice, sweet, thoughtful, diplomatic and the best thing about him is he never tries to hurt your feelings and he's pretty tolerating. Really his girlfriend is lucky to have him. If I'd to talk to some guy, I'd go and talk to him, because he's very easy to talk to and its not a one way conversation. (Aka me doing all the talking - not always - but usually)
Life is dull as I'm really not motivated or excited about anything. We're going to Singapore for a trip on Friday or Saturday though its not completely decided yet and I'm just not excited or into it. Its basically just "meh yeah ok whatever", I like luxuries a lot, and I'm gonna travel through emirates, and that plane is awesome, it has video-games,latest movies (including the hindi movies), latest programs and if you're travelling by first class (which I am) you can get massages. In Singapore I'd be able to meet Hannah (who's an awesome online friend of mine), but truth be told I'm actually scared. What if she doesn't like me? What if she takes one look at me and thinks I'm too ugly or really weird or something? What if upon meeting, we're so different that I end up feeling like an outsider? I'm just constantly worrying about such stuff.
Right now I'm feeling guilty cause I've done nothing during these holidays, I've just realized how easy it is to think and say stuff but its so difficult to do stuff. Like this was my plan for my holidays:
1. Study all previous chapters from all the subjects
2. Study Accounts and prepare in advance so that I can beat Neha and get the top marks which would enable me to get the prize for that subject.
3. Exercizing/ Dieting so I can become more thin
4. Practise Table Tennis so I can beat Manasvi in it next year (for the personal reason of proving myself)
5. Take Drum classes
6. Finish my commerce homework
7. Take real good care of my hair and health.
8. Complete my Economics project
9. Concentrate on SATS and try to improve my vocabulary
10. Practise Business Maths because I don't want to lose my touch and I still wanna be the best in my class.
And so far, I've done none of these things, holidays started on June 24 and till now I've done NOTHING (oh maybe a teeny weeny bit here and there but nothing) and I so loathe myself for it. I loathe myself for complaining over here and not doing anything. Why is it so difficult to get up and go take an action??? I can't seem to get out of the internet. I'm such a big loser. So much for being hardworking.
Anyways I'll end this depressing and negetive entry with something positive: There's a book that you don't find in Dubai (cause Dubai is lacking in books) that I've been wanting for agesss and Hollie actually agreed to buy it for me and thats sooo nice and kind of her, I don't have many friends who would be that generous. So I sincerely want to thank you Hollie. You're always very sweet and diplomatic and have always been really nice to me :).
I know this probably sounds lame, but I really miss my best friend Tessy a LOT. Me and Her used to've all these looong conversations, and we used to gossip and make jokes and generally have lots of fun. But she has been gone for a month now, and she wont be back till August 24, and I wonder if she misses me too. These holidays are really boring, atleast last holidays were a bit fun because she was there and a couple of other friends were there too and I met new people, but these days I do nothing besides being on the computer the whole day, checking my email more than once and trying to make conversations with people who really don't want to talk. I play games too, but sometimes I just want human communication, someone I can talk to easily and someone who is genuinely interested in what I've to say.
Its not all bad, there is a guy who does that, his name is Adarsh, honestly he's one of the best guys I've ever met. He's really nice, sweet, thoughtful, diplomatic and the best thing about him is he never tries to hurt your feelings and he's pretty tolerating. Really his girlfriend is lucky to have him. If I'd to talk to some guy, I'd go and talk to him, because he's very easy to talk to and its not a one way conversation. (Aka me doing all the talking - not always - but usually)
Life is dull as I'm really not motivated or excited about anything. We're going to Singapore for a trip on Friday or Saturday though its not completely decided yet and I'm just not excited or into it. Its basically just "meh yeah ok whatever", I like luxuries a lot, and I'm gonna travel through emirates, and that plane is awesome, it has video-games,latest movies (including the hindi movies), latest programs and if you're travelling by first class (which I am) you can get massages. In Singapore I'd be able to meet Hannah (who's an awesome online friend of mine), but truth be told I'm actually scared. What if she doesn't like me? What if she takes one look at me and thinks I'm too ugly or really weird or something? What if upon meeting, we're so different that I end up feeling like an outsider? I'm just constantly worrying about such stuff.
Right now I'm feeling guilty cause I've done nothing during these holidays, I've just realized how easy it is to think and say stuff but its so difficult to do stuff. Like this was my plan for my holidays:
1. Study all previous chapters from all the subjects
2. Study Accounts and prepare in advance so that I can beat Neha and get the top marks which would enable me to get the prize for that subject.
3. Exercizing/ Dieting so I can become more thin
4. Practise Table Tennis so I can beat Manasvi in it next year (for the personal reason of proving myself)
5. Take Drum classes
6. Finish my commerce homework
7. Take real good care of my hair and health.
8. Complete my Economics project
9. Concentrate on SATS and try to improve my vocabulary
10. Practise Business Maths because I don't want to lose my touch and I still wanna be the best in my class.
And so far, I've done none of these things, holidays started on June 24 and till now I've done NOTHING (oh maybe a teeny weeny bit here and there but nothing) and I so loathe myself for it. I loathe myself for complaining over here and not doing anything. Why is it so difficult to get up and go take an action??? I can't seem to get out of the internet. I'm such a big loser. So much for being hardworking.
Anyways I'll end this depressing and negetive entry with something positive: There's a book that you don't find in Dubai (cause Dubai is lacking in books) that I've been wanting for agesss and Hollie actually agreed to buy it for me and thats sooo nice and kind of her, I don't have many friends who would be that generous. So I sincerely want to thank you Hollie. You're always very sweet and diplomatic and have always been really nice to me :).