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ever think.."wow i wish things were good like they use to be..." then you realize nothing was ever good for you.
I have been going through the motions and do what exactly?
I serious am sick of it all.
I am sick of Lunenburg and the drama of having to associate with anyone anymore.
I am sick of never seeing the people I actually care about.
I wish I could see my new friends more.
I am sick of myspace and facebook.
I wish kyle didn't work so much.
I can not last the rest of this week plus monday putting up with the bullshit that is known as school.
I wish the community scholars didn't ever exist.
I do not enjoy children.
especially middle schoolers.
I hate when people i think i am friends with again really are not my friend and i'm the last to find out.
I think i need to go to new york or another country and not tell anyone.
I have so much aggression and rage but no energy.
I really don't like 2 in the morning mental breakdowns.
I don't see how all kinds of horrible things happen to me and i try to be a nice person and the worst people get stuff handed to them and have money to buy drugs.
I work two jobs so i'll have gas money to drive to school.
how does that make sense?
All I do is work, school, and art.
Everyone else sees everyone and parties
I think I'm jealous that I had to grow up so fast and everyone is still acting immature and carefree
I would give anything to be carefree.
Instead I get to pretend like everything is going fine and I'm happy
When really I bottle up every negative emotion and break down every other month.
Being an adult sucks.
I really don't understand the greatness.
My brother is now 21 and willing to help me out whenever.
I haven't even taken advantage of that since all i do is work.
I have been going through the motions and do what exactly?
I serious am sick of it all.
I am sick of Lunenburg and the drama of having to associate with anyone anymore.
I am sick of never seeing the people I actually care about.
I wish I could see my new friends more.
I am sick of myspace and facebook.
I wish kyle didn't work so much.
I can not last the rest of this week plus monday putting up with the bullshit that is known as school.
I wish the community scholars didn't ever exist.
I do not enjoy children.
especially middle schoolers.
I hate when people i think i am friends with again really are not my friend and i'm the last to find out.
I think i need to go to new york or another country and not tell anyone.
I have so much aggression and rage but no energy.
I really don't like 2 in the morning mental breakdowns.
I don't see how all kinds of horrible things happen to me and i try to be a nice person and the worst people get stuff handed to them and have money to buy drugs.
I work two jobs so i'll have gas money to drive to school.
how does that make sense?
All I do is work, school, and art.
Everyone else sees everyone and parties
I think I'm jealous that I had to grow up so fast and everyone is still acting immature and carefree
I would give anything to be carefree.
Instead I get to pretend like everything is going fine and I'm happy
When really I bottle up every negative emotion and break down every other month.
Being an adult sucks.
I really don't understand the greatness.
My brother is now 21 and willing to help me out whenever.
I haven't even taken advantage of that since all i do is work.