What I wanted to write
This is roughly the letter I want so much to write but just can't.
Before you read the rest of this, I want to make two things clear up front to you:
1. I don't want anything from you, I am really happy that you and Andy are so happy. He seems like a great guy and you go so well together. Even in the unlikely event you felt something similar to me I would never ever want you to lose the wonderful relationship you have now. I just want to say this partly (and I apologise for this) to get it off my chest because it's been driving me mad, and partly because should you ever forget just how wonderful you are this might help remind you.
2. I don't want to leave where I am now. These are just feelings that I can't help and have had to deal with as best I can.
Essentially: Over the last few months you were here I completely fell in love with you.
Not liking you, not fancying you, not thinking you were pretty (though you are). Absolute undeniable love.
You are possibly the most inspiring person I have ever met in my life. You are passionate and dedicated and so so smart. You live life with a sense of fun but never forget the important things.
I admire so much the good work that you have done for great causes, and I hope you will continue to do such things.
You are truly a beautiful person. I am not the only one to think so, and I feel genuinely lucky to have known you at all. Never ever forget who you are, never lose faith or belief in yourself. I have absolute belief that you will achieve everything you ever want and far more besides.
You said when you left that we wouldn't remember you. You couldn't be more wrong. Everyone here misses you. You made such an impression on everyone.
I love you so much. It will never mean anything, but it's there and I can't kill it so I might as well accept it and move on. I hope knowing this doesn't make you feel resentment towards me or stop wanting to be my friend; but the urge to tell you how amazing you are is just unbearable.
Be happy, live a perfect life with a great guy, do everything you ever dream of, stay wonderful. If you forget me I won't mind, but I won't forget you. ever.
Rob xxx
Before you read the rest of this, I want to make two things clear up front to you:
1. I don't want anything from you, I am really happy that you and Andy are so happy. He seems like a great guy and you go so well together. Even in the unlikely event you felt something similar to me I would never ever want you to lose the wonderful relationship you have now. I just want to say this partly (and I apologise for this) to get it off my chest because it's been driving me mad, and partly because should you ever forget just how wonderful you are this might help remind you.
2. I don't want to leave where I am now. These are just feelings that I can't help and have had to deal with as best I can.
Essentially: Over the last few months you were here I completely fell in love with you.
Not liking you, not fancying you, not thinking you were pretty (though you are). Absolute undeniable love.
You are possibly the most inspiring person I have ever met in my life. You are passionate and dedicated and so so smart. You live life with a sense of fun but never forget the important things.
I admire so much the good work that you have done for great causes, and I hope you will continue to do such things.
You are truly a beautiful person. I am not the only one to think so, and I feel genuinely lucky to have known you at all. Never ever forget who you are, never lose faith or belief in yourself. I have absolute belief that you will achieve everything you ever want and far more besides.
You said when you left that we wouldn't remember you. You couldn't be more wrong. Everyone here misses you. You made such an impression on everyone.
I love you so much. It will never mean anything, but it's there and I can't kill it so I might as well accept it and move on. I hope knowing this doesn't make you feel resentment towards me or stop wanting to be my friend; but the urge to tell you how amazing you are is just unbearable.
Be happy, live a perfect life with a great guy, do everything you ever dream of, stay wonderful. If you forget me I won't mind, but I won't forget you. ever.
Rob xxx