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I've been pretty fucking depressed these last few days. Mainly because I'm the fucking bastard child of my platoon. I should have left when I had the chance.
I really don't know how to explain it. I guess I'm just not one of the cool kids anymore. I mean, we have this one soldier, he thinks he's all that. Which, he is I guess. He's funny, good to be around and just always in a good mood. Everyone seems to be that way too but he attracts everyone to his room. I've kind of fallen off.
I just don't care anymore. My boss can yell at me all day. I'm just going to yell back and be a shitty leader. I don't get treated with respect, I don't get any of that. The Army has changed. My last unit was so much better than this. A Sergeant would tell a troop what to do and he'd do it. Here, they argue ans fight with you ALL THE TIME.
Anyway. Yeah, my last post about re-enlisting, I'm having second thoughts. But..I do this. I'm always leaning towards one way. If I do re-enlist, I'm going to try and get Fort Carson Colorado. 3rd ACR is down there and they're leaving in January also. So I could come back to Iraq with them.
I hope the next roadside bomb that hits me, puts me out of my misery.
I really don't know how to explain it. I guess I'm just not one of the cool kids anymore. I mean, we have this one soldier, he thinks he's all that. Which, he is I guess. He's funny, good to be around and just always in a good mood. Everyone seems to be that way too but he attracts everyone to his room. I've kind of fallen off.
I just don't care anymore. My boss can yell at me all day. I'm just going to yell back and be a shitty leader. I don't get treated with respect, I don't get any of that. The Army has changed. My last unit was so much better than this. A Sergeant would tell a troop what to do and he'd do it. Here, they argue ans fight with you ALL THE TIME.
Anyway. Yeah, my last post about re-enlisting, I'm having second thoughts. But..I do this. I'm always leaning towards one way. If I do re-enlist, I'm going to try and get Fort Carson Colorado. 3rd ACR is down there and they're leaving in January also. So I could come back to Iraq with them.
I hope the next roadside bomb that hits me, puts me out of my misery.