I have no idea what I am doing...
So I received an offer from PacSun to be a part of their Merchant Trainee Program, which means that I will be trained as an assistant buyer. This is what I've wanted for the last two year and I got it...but I don't know anymore. I mean when I didn't have it, it was all I could think of but now I don't really know.
The last three weeks I've been killing myself over this position and now I have no idea if I did the right thing. The big part is that I'll be leaving my internship and even though I've been waiting forever to leave, I realize that I don't. The one reason why I would want to leave is leaving the company tomorrow, so then what is there to keep me away? The pay? The relatively lower compensation package? AND I just had the most awesomest week in Chicago with my co-workers and seriously what intern can say that she went on a business trip and is treated like an equal?
I sent in my acceptance on Monday but since then I've been talking to people and realizing things that I didn't really consider before. All these things are adding up that together tell me that I'm making the wrong choice. The models we hired at the show told me just how lucky I am to work with the people I work with; former buyers consistently tell me that this type of career is horrible; I cried when I told the HR person about the offer with PacSun and my leaving the company; my bosses were completely understanding and encouraging when I told them about the opportunity and told me that I'd be great; my whole entire week I spent with my boss was incredible; my business trip to Chicago was amazing. God, I don't even know anymore. At least I know that as long as the HR person is still at the company, I can always come back. I hope I did the right thing agreeing to this job because I know I'm leaving an amazing job and opportunity to join PacSun.
The last three weeks I've been killing myself over this position and now I have no idea if I did the right thing. The big part is that I'll be leaving my internship and even though I've been waiting forever to leave, I realize that I don't. The one reason why I would want to leave is leaving the company tomorrow, so then what is there to keep me away? The pay? The relatively lower compensation package? AND I just had the most awesomest week in Chicago with my co-workers and seriously what intern can say that she went on a business trip and is treated like an equal?
I sent in my acceptance on Monday but since then I've been talking to people and realizing things that I didn't really consider before. All these things are adding up that together tell me that I'm making the wrong choice. The models we hired at the show told me just how lucky I am to work with the people I work with; former buyers consistently tell me that this type of career is horrible; I cried when I told the HR person about the offer with PacSun and my leaving the company; my bosses were completely understanding and encouraging when I told them about the opportunity and told me that I'd be great; my whole entire week I spent with my boss was incredible; my business trip to Chicago was amazing. God, I don't even know anymore. At least I know that as long as the HR person is still at the company, I can always come back. I hope I did the right thing agreeing to this job because I know I'm leaving an amazing job and opportunity to join PacSun.