Fuck
Had an interesting discussion with A tonight. I was upset, and she said, "yeah, well, you've been depressed for quite some time now." And when she said it, i realised how true it was. It explains my lack of resilience, not going to training, the crap memory, the dodgy sleeping patterns. I've just tried to paper it over with keeping myself busy, but it's not working. I am actually depressed.
Shit, what do i do now.
My reactions to things the last couple of days have been really off. Even as i'm saying things, i can't quite believe that they are coming out of my mouth. I'm really sorry, to anyone who i've offended in that time.
Oh and yes, i started bleeding today. Again, a huge shock. Why am i always surprised about this? And i can never remember when it's due to happen, despite being pretty regular. When i mentioned this to A, she said "yeah, you might not know when yr due, but i certainly do." lol.
Shit, what do i do now.
My reactions to things the last couple of days have been really off. Even as i'm saying things, i can't quite believe that they are coming out of my mouth. I'm really sorry, to anyone who i've offended in that time.
Oh and yes, i started bleeding today. Again, a huge shock. Why am i always surprised about this? And i can never remember when it's due to happen, despite being pretty regular. When i mentioned this to A, she said "yeah, you might not know when yr due, but i certainly do." lol.