another dilemma?

[messyone]

I got up the guts to reply to another of Ciocio's journal entries. I like her.... well, I like her writing and her thoughts and her words. She thanked me, and said I could email her. I'm very reluctant to do that. I think I would like to get to know her better, but what if she doesn't want to get to know me? See, this way I can stay at my distance, in my safe place, and quietly observe. But it might be nice.... Even making contact with a stranger is scary, I don't handle rejection too well. And after my attempt with writing to Wendy came close to disaster (I don't understand how I can intrigue so many people -online and in life- and then so quickly turn them off), I'm terrified to try it again.

I make myself sad sometimes.