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Phone call from Ken-Leigh. Hearing his voice made me smile. He was a bit scattered while trying to explain himself, but I so thoroughly appreciate him trying to help me understand where he's at. He's recently free of his last relationship obligation, and has no desire to delve back into that place, which I get. He'd said as much when we were together. But I like him, I feel a connection to him, and I am refusing to just sit back and wait for things to happen. I don't know if he and I will "work out," of course I don't know that, but as of right now I would like more of him in my life.
He adamantly told me more than once that he'd really like to see me again. He told me that it's not about him having his own agenda and being able to come and go as he pleases. He respects me and just wants to make sure that I understand him, so that he doesn't waste my time. He also made it clear that he's not opposed to a relationship at some point, if that's where things lead, but he can't get into something with me right now that has a definitive end game.
That's all fair and good. "I think we should just communicate more," I agree, Ken-Leigh, I agree. So that's what we're going to do. We're going to send messages when we're thinking of each other, and we're going to make an effort to phone chat regularly. He doesn't want to feel restricted or pressured, but he does want to explore the connection we both feel.
He also commented about how he's sensual and loves romance and wants to feel like he can do those things, but acknowledges that with them - particularly with the intensity of occasional visits due to distance - emotions get heightened and lines can get blurry.
I WANT THE ROMANCE AND SENSUALITY!!! And I'll do my damndest to make sure things remain crystal clear outside of the bedroom.
Communication and connection are probably my two biggest wants and desires in any relationship right now.
Cody is still on my mind pretty much every moment of every day. I very much want to explore where things go with him. I need to be careful to be real and honest, and to take things slowly, with all the men in my life. But that being said, I think that being single again at this point warrants me reaching out, seeing who's out there, getting to know people, enjoying looking and learning and meeting and talking and exploring and connecting. When I do end up being committed to one man and deciding to make a life with him, I don't want there to be any regrets or what ifs, no unopened doors, as much as I can possibly make that happen. It's only fair, to myself and to him.
This summer is going to be interesting, and very very good.
He adamantly told me more than once that he'd really like to see me again. He told me that it's not about him having his own agenda and being able to come and go as he pleases. He respects me and just wants to make sure that I understand him, so that he doesn't waste my time. He also made it clear that he's not opposed to a relationship at some point, if that's where things lead, but he can't get into something with me right now that has a definitive end game.
That's all fair and good. "I think we should just communicate more," I agree, Ken-Leigh, I agree. So that's what we're going to do. We're going to send messages when we're thinking of each other, and we're going to make an effort to phone chat regularly. He doesn't want to feel restricted or pressured, but he does want to explore the connection we both feel.
He also commented about how he's sensual and loves romance and wants to feel like he can do those things, but acknowledges that with them - particularly with the intensity of occasional visits due to distance - emotions get heightened and lines can get blurry.
I WANT THE ROMANCE AND SENSUALITY!!! And I'll do my damndest to make sure things remain crystal clear outside of the bedroom.
Communication and connection are probably my two biggest wants and desires in any relationship right now.
Cody is still on my mind pretty much every moment of every day. I very much want to explore where things go with him. I need to be careful to be real and honest, and to take things slowly, with all the men in my life. But that being said, I think that being single again at this point warrants me reaching out, seeing who's out there, getting to know people, enjoying looking and learning and meeting and talking and exploring and connecting. When I do end up being committed to one man and deciding to make a life with him, I don't want there to be any regrets or what ifs, no unopened doors, as much as I can possibly make that happen. It's only fair, to myself and to him.
This summer is going to be interesting, and very very good.