Little things
And then there are the little things that are lost. Like the goodbye kiss and "I love you" before he leaves every morning. He did come in and kiss my cheek this morning, but it's just not the same. And I know I should be glad that he's still here and still affectionate at all, but the withdrawal of even those smallest things hurts. A lot.
We're still working on details. Sure, one of us could move out tonight and we could choose not to speak again, but neither of us wants that. I don't know if it's easier or harder to get through this slowly, but, it is what it is.
...He just walked in the door from work. He walked past me, no kiss hello, which I don't begrudge him.. Then he turned and kissed my cheek before heading to the shower. And I started to cry. How come this is so damn hard even when it's 100% mutual???
I had other stuff to say, but I'll get to it later.
We're still working on details. Sure, one of us could move out tonight and we could choose not to speak again, but neither of us wants that. I don't know if it's easier or harder to get through this slowly, but, it is what it is.
...He just walked in the door from work. He walked past me, no kiss hello, which I don't begrudge him.. Then he turned and kissed my cheek before heading to the shower. And I started to cry. How come this is so damn hard even when it's 100% mutual???
I had other stuff to say, but I'll get to it later.