Lesions and life lessons
My lump isn't cancerous. But it's not totally benign either. They call it some kind of lesion, and there's a chance it could become cancerous. Apparently the likelihood of that happening is only 5-8%, but that's still a 1 in 20 chance. My options are to leave it be, and have an ultrasound done every year to monitor it for any changes in size or composition. But if it does change that likely means it's become cancerous; I'll have another biopsy done, and if positive then they'll remove my entire thyroid and hope for the best. Option number two is to have it taken out before it become cancerous. They can't just remove the nodule/lesion, they would remove that half of my thyroid. I'm not super keen on the idea of losing half my thyroid, but apparently the thyroid can function fine with only half of it.
So, I can lose half my thyroid and go through the stress of surgery, but then not have to monitor or worry on a yearly basis. Or, I can take the simpler route and learn to live with the lump in my neck, and hope that the odds are in my favour.
For now I've opted to give it some time, do some research, have it ultrasounded in June, and then go from there. I'm not really stoked on any of this. And honestly, everyone else seems to be so much more relieved than me that it's not cancer. Not that I wanted cancer, but for some reason I wasn't overly freaked out by it.... Is there something wrong with me?
Despite that depressing little paragraph, things are good and I'm rather content. I could do without the -12C and freezing fog, but other than that, all is well. I worked 13 days in a row, and it was totally fine until the last shift, which I had a really hard time showing up to. I had two days off (Sunday and Monday) and it felt like forever, and yet not long enough. I have today off as well, and I just gave away my Saturday shift so I'll have from Friday afternoon until Monday afternoon off this weekend. And Maclean is going out hunting again so I'll be home alone, free, uncommitted, relaxed... *grin*
Work is good, home is good, Maclean and I are as good as can be expected. Neither of us seems to have much libido these days, but at least we're both on the same page? Quinn is being absolutely rotten, but she's still cute as hell and I love her to death.
My days off last weekend were lovely. Maclean and I went for Sunday brunch with Jade, Scotty, Stephie and Byron at Wurst. I was dressed and had a free day and I wanted to do something, but not anything too taxing. Maclean, Jade and I decided to check out the Farmers Market. It was fun to wander and look at things, and to buy a few Christmas gifts. Then we decided to go to the Glenbow Museum since none of us had ever been. It was really cool, but there was sooooo much to see that we'd barely made it up to the third floor before closing. Guess we'll have to go back again another day. Those spur-of-the-moment type days are fun. Quinny was sure unhappy with us for leaving her alone all day though. Oops. We hadn't planned on being gone that long!
Monday I went to Costco to get a gift that Kelsi had asked for. I ended up with $380 worth of stuff!! Mostly food storage items, and I realized later that perhaps my subconscious was urging me to prepare for the zombie apocalypse. I've been watching a lot of The Walking Dead..... But seriously, that show definitely makes you think about what's important, having supplies and survival skills, and makes you ask yourself a lot of questions as to what you'd do in that situation. Yeah yeah, it's a zombie based TV series, but it's surprisingly not cheesy. Makes me realize I need to get into MUCH better shape - those suckers are relentless!!!!!
Monday night I took off work because I got free passes to a pre-screening of Silver Lining Playbook, and I decided I wanted to go. Jade and I had a free sister date (we brought popcorn and organic soda with us to the theatre) and it was lovely. The movie was funny and touching.
It's good to get out and do different things, take advantage of opportunities that arise. It's so easy to just sit at home, but despite my less than passionate love affair with Calgary, it does have a fair bit to offer.
Speaking of love affairs, my newest fling (I wouldn't quite label it an obsession) is with Hydrogen Peroxide. What a little miracle substance! It cleans. It disinfects. It's safe and environmentally friendly. Want a starter list of it's magical properties, check this out:
http://www.onegoodthingbyjillee.com/2012/09/hydrogen-peroxide-magic.html#more-8678
And on that note, I'd better get cleaning. (So much for a day off!!)
So, I can lose half my thyroid and go through the stress of surgery, but then not have to monitor or worry on a yearly basis. Or, I can take the simpler route and learn to live with the lump in my neck, and hope that the odds are in my favour.
For now I've opted to give it some time, do some research, have it ultrasounded in June, and then go from there. I'm not really stoked on any of this. And honestly, everyone else seems to be so much more relieved than me that it's not cancer. Not that I wanted cancer, but for some reason I wasn't overly freaked out by it.... Is there something wrong with me?
Despite that depressing little paragraph, things are good and I'm rather content. I could do without the -12C and freezing fog, but other than that, all is well. I worked 13 days in a row, and it was totally fine until the last shift, which I had a really hard time showing up to. I had two days off (Sunday and Monday) and it felt like forever, and yet not long enough. I have today off as well, and I just gave away my Saturday shift so I'll have from Friday afternoon until Monday afternoon off this weekend. And Maclean is going out hunting again so I'll be home alone, free, uncommitted, relaxed... *grin*
Work is good, home is good, Maclean and I are as good as can be expected. Neither of us seems to have much libido these days, but at least we're both on the same page? Quinn is being absolutely rotten, but she's still cute as hell and I love her to death.
My days off last weekend were lovely. Maclean and I went for Sunday brunch with Jade, Scotty, Stephie and Byron at Wurst. I was dressed and had a free day and I wanted to do something, but not anything too taxing. Maclean, Jade and I decided to check out the Farmers Market. It was fun to wander and look at things, and to buy a few Christmas gifts. Then we decided to go to the Glenbow Museum since none of us had ever been. It was really cool, but there was sooooo much to see that we'd barely made it up to the third floor before closing. Guess we'll have to go back again another day. Those spur-of-the-moment type days are fun. Quinny was sure unhappy with us for leaving her alone all day though. Oops. We hadn't planned on being gone that long!
Monday I went to Costco to get a gift that Kelsi had asked for. I ended up with $380 worth of stuff!! Mostly food storage items, and I realized later that perhaps my subconscious was urging me to prepare for the zombie apocalypse. I've been watching a lot of The Walking Dead..... But seriously, that show definitely makes you think about what's important, having supplies and survival skills, and makes you ask yourself a lot of questions as to what you'd do in that situation. Yeah yeah, it's a zombie based TV series, but it's surprisingly not cheesy. Makes me realize I need to get into MUCH better shape - those suckers are relentless!!!!!
Monday night I took off work because I got free passes to a pre-screening of Silver Lining Playbook, and I decided I wanted to go. Jade and I had a free sister date (we brought popcorn and organic soda with us to the theatre) and it was lovely. The movie was funny and touching.
It's good to get out and do different things, take advantage of opportunities that arise. It's so easy to just sit at home, but despite my less than passionate love affair with Calgary, it does have a fair bit to offer.
Speaking of love affairs, my newest fling (I wouldn't quite label it an obsession) is with Hydrogen Peroxide. What a little miracle substance! It cleans. It disinfects. It's safe and environmentally friendly. Want a starter list of it's magical properties, check this out:
http://www.onegoodthingbyjillee.com/2012/09/hydrogen-peroxide-magic.html#more-8678
And on that note, I'd better get cleaning. (So much for a day off!!)