Not cool
Our accommodations still suck.
We got sunburned on the beach today.
Everything is so expensive here I feel like I'm just being completely and constantly ripped off, and it makes me both angry and sick to my stomach.
I'm lonely and missing the comforts of home.
Plus, Nick sent me a message tonight, and then he happened to be online so we're chatting, and it's not going well. I really need to have a serious serious breakdown/sob session, but that's just not in the cards for tonight. He's seriously pissed off, but so am I. All I wanted was for him to fight for me. For two years I've been ready to drop my life for him, and instead he made me wait. And it turned out to be too long of a wait. He never wanted to overstep his bounds because I was in a relationship, but if he would have overstepped them even a little bit I would have been in his arms and in his life a long long time ago.
I don't regret choosing Mike, but I do regret that Nick and I never had a shot.
This isn't cool.
......................
If I was the swearing type I'd be swearing up a storm right now. How can Nick be so damn perfect? How can I still want him so badly? I want Mike, but it's so completely different. And to make matters worse the movie "The Notebook" was playing in the bar last night so Jade and I watched it. Now all I want is that absolute undying passion that they had. She loved the man that was "right" for her, but in the end she chose the one that her heart just couldn't let go.
Damn damn damn damn....
And I don't even know which is which any more. Does the passion lie with Mike or with Nick?
We got sunburned on the beach today.
Everything is so expensive here I feel like I'm just being completely and constantly ripped off, and it makes me both angry and sick to my stomach.
I'm lonely and missing the comforts of home.
Plus, Nick sent me a message tonight, and then he happened to be online so we're chatting, and it's not going well. I really need to have a serious serious breakdown/sob session, but that's just not in the cards for tonight. He's seriously pissed off, but so am I. All I wanted was for him to fight for me. For two years I've been ready to drop my life for him, and instead he made me wait. And it turned out to be too long of a wait. He never wanted to overstep his bounds because I was in a relationship, but if he would have overstepped them even a little bit I would have been in his arms and in his life a long long time ago.
I don't regret choosing Mike, but I do regret that Nick and I never had a shot.
This isn't cool.
......................
If I was the swearing type I'd be swearing up a storm right now. How can Nick be so damn perfect? How can I still want him so badly? I want Mike, but it's so completely different. And to make matters worse the movie "The Notebook" was playing in the bar last night so Jade and I watched it. Now all I want is that absolute undying passion that they had. She loved the man that was "right" for her, but in the end she chose the one that her heart just couldn't let go.
Damn damn damn damn....
And I don't even know which is which any more. Does the passion lie with Mike or with Nick?