Fears
I don't know what's scarier: moving or staying.
Moving to a new city sounds like the most awesome thing in the world. I am really, really ready to move. I want change. I'm afraid of settling into a worthless existence here in Raleigh. I also want to challenge myself to make the most out of my future and my career.
At the same time, I'm afraid to throw away things that I have here. It's so hard to leave friends and family behind. It's hard to leave the school and people that you've grown so close to. It's hard to explain to a boyfriend that you are leaving. Long distance doesn't work out.
One of my biggest problems is that I am like Amelie or the girl in the painting from the boat party by Renoir. She's looking off into the distance while everyone else is partying and having a blast. No matter where I am, I'd rather be elsewhere. There are too many hard decisions to make in life, and regardless of my decisions, there are always going to be reasons for me to regret those decisions. Every choice comes with a consequence. How depressing.
Moving to a new city sounds like the most awesome thing in the world. I am really, really ready to move. I want change. I'm afraid of settling into a worthless existence here in Raleigh. I also want to challenge myself to make the most out of my future and my career.
At the same time, I'm afraid to throw away things that I have here. It's so hard to leave friends and family behind. It's hard to leave the school and people that you've grown so close to. It's hard to explain to a boyfriend that you are leaving. Long distance doesn't work out.
One of my biggest problems is that I am like Amelie or the girl in the painting from the boat party by Renoir. She's looking off into the distance while everyone else is partying and having a blast. No matter where I am, I'd rather be elsewhere. There are too many hard decisions to make in life, and regardless of my decisions, there are always going to be reasons for me to regret those decisions. Every choice comes with a consequence. How depressing.