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I have to hold myself together because I'm all alone in the world.
I mean...I can't even get a friend to go with me to the doctor or hang out with me if they have to come out of their way.
It's a good thing I'm not suicidal because I'm sure no one would help anyway. Remember the time I was? I took care of myself and no one knows what happened.
People say they feel inspired and empowered when they see me perform...but when I need them...they're nowhere to be found and I'm crazy. I'm really tired of being forced into this role. I'm performing one more time as Edie...then I'm done. Only focusing on my drag king. At this point I never intend to do burlesque again.
So it is what it is. All I have in the world is me. People aren't deserving of my inner workings. I need to keep my cool. I'm finally seeing a psychiatrist.
I mean...I can't even get a friend to go with me to the doctor or hang out with me if they have to come out of their way.
It's a good thing I'm not suicidal because I'm sure no one would help anyway. Remember the time I was? I took care of myself and no one knows what happened.
People say they feel inspired and empowered when they see me perform...but when I need them...they're nowhere to be found and I'm crazy. I'm really tired of being forced into this role. I'm performing one more time as Edie...then I'm done. Only focusing on my drag king. At this point I never intend to do burlesque again.
So it is what it is. All I have in the world is me. People aren't deserving of my inner workings. I need to keep my cool. I'm finally seeing a psychiatrist.