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I remember when:;
We were bound lovers,
waiting to collide.
We needed nothing but eachother,
&everything was better side by side.
I remember when my eyes were pretty,
& you told me that I was beautiful.
I fixed your days when they were shitty,
& every moment spent in your presence was fruitful.
I remember in those old days,
That no other girl could compare.
I was the only one you looked at that way,
I was all yours&you were all mine, no room to share.
I remember:;
being so much more that the girl in the next seat,
When no matter what you said I knew you cared about me.
I miss those days already&I see you're already gone,
& you get to go on being happy while I sit&cry over love songs.
I hate these days already&I dont feel like moving on,
Love has always been a game&I have always been a pawn.
&these are nothing more than thoughts, Im not saying that they are real,
Im just letting you know you broke the broken, this is how I feel.
& something inside of me is telling me to hold on.
Dont let go:; You lost love once before.
You know your the victim to his con,
You know how it is, youre the one he adores.
& I know it deep inside me, that this isnt the way,
It wasnt fair how you did it or that you did it that day.
It wasnt right for you to leave me, without so much as why,
& its not right that you can just watch me cry.
& I know that somewhere in you, youre feeling all this too,
I know you dont want to love me but you cant help that you do.
Just like I cant help the way things hurt me,
But the fact youre joking is hard to see.
I wasnt given a chance, a warning or sign.
I was giving false security&intentions that were lies.
You told me yould always be mine,
&I was the only candy for youre eyes.
Maybe youre hurting to & its just to hard to see,
Or maybe these fears arent false & you never did love me.
God knows if you did & If youre words were ever true,
That if you meant it that you love me than you still so strongly do.
& this poem is long&corny & I want to delete it right away
But the stars say to speak my mind & this is how I should say:;
If you left becuase you dont want me,
Than fine- Go away.
But if you did for others than come back,
Give me a chance to make you want to stay.
You know you denied me that before.
I know you know that its not right.
So if you miss me or you love me,
Let me know so I can fight
le day
So dont you hate when a youre going with a guy
& there is this chick & just eep:; ya know?
& tells you that she is ugly over&over.
Than you guys break up& he hits on her.
Like seriously bad. Like even does the hoe shit:;
Telling her the things he once told you.
Well that just pisses me off.
I dont feel like dying anymore.
I dont know. Its good. Thought I would let ya know.
I just want to go Europe.
I dont want to die alone.
I miss Alex.
I always will.
I love him&it sucks.
School was fucking hell.
I had an anxiety attack during passing time.
In the middle of the damn hallway. Im embarassed.
I have no idea how many peopole saw... Idk
I dont want to go back to school...
Whitney said she her some guy say:;
"Damn that girl is crazy"
No:; Thank you very much Im not.
I am just a stupid girl who trusted a boys she shouldnt have...