mental breakdown
I seem to be having one of those days, weeks, moments when I can't seem to do anything right. No amount of investing my time, energy or concentration seems to make a difference. I am someone who believes that anything is achievable if you work hard enough for it. If this is true then why the hell is live journal pissing me off. I currently can't figure out anything regarding scrapbook and it only makes me wish that I cared more about technology than I do. That's not my only problem. My mom took me for a driving lesson yesterday. It really was horrible. I always thought that I had the very basics of driving down but curves, turns and everything that's not a straight line makes me nervous. I haven't managed to be able to drive and multitask. My mom is driving me crazy as passenger side driver. I spend the whole time I'm behind the wheel freaking out about one thing or another. By the time I get out of the car my hands hurt from gripping the wheel so tightly. I'm loosing my motivation to drive. If I could just be in the car alone! Something tells me that I won't be a drive for the joy of it type of girl.
I'm just in the worst mood. I've been up all night trying to figure out scrapbook and doing internet searches for jewelry that I shouldn't be buying. I bought a $220 bracelet, yesterday! I sure as hell don't need the bracelet. It's not like it's made of gold! Shopping and buying things make me feel better when I'm unhappy. The bracelet is half of the money i've earned from selling my books on half.com. I need to find someway to make my mind stop thinking about my life. I need to live for right now. I need something to look forward too. Or maybe I just need some sleep. My neck hurts like hell. I just need a change of perspective. I need to accomplish something. Goddess I hope that portland is the place for me. I hope that I can find someone to date in portland. I'm done! no one will ever read this anyway.
I'm just in the worst mood. I've been up all night trying to figure out scrapbook and doing internet searches for jewelry that I shouldn't be buying. I bought a $220 bracelet, yesterday! I sure as hell don't need the bracelet. It's not like it's made of gold! Shopping and buying things make me feel better when I'm unhappy. The bracelet is half of the money i've earned from selling my books on half.com. I need to find someway to make my mind stop thinking about my life. I need to live for right now. I need something to look forward too. Or maybe I just need some sleep. My neck hurts like hell. I just need a change of perspective. I need to accomplish something. Goddess I hope that portland is the place for me. I hope that I can find someone to date in portland. I'm done! no one will ever read this anyway.