happy fucking new year!
So I originally wanted to do the overrated new year's resolution bit but my mom has pissed me off. But let's start with last night. My mom "rocks in" the new year at church. This church does a holy new year's party. I was forced to go years ago when I was still in college, but I'm an adult now and I never go. Mind you there's a lot of guilt tripping that goes on in order to get me to go, but church is the last place I would want to be on new year's eve. So after my mom comes home and I'm sleep because they return home at about 1am. She feels so sad that I didn't have as much fun as she did. If I had gone to church I would have been miserable. New Year's eve is just not fun unless you are hanging out with people you like. I love my family but they are not my chosen people to party with. And since I am currently stuck in my version of partyless hell, new year's eve was supposed to be boring. I had a drink and sad happy new year and went to bed.
But there is more! So my mom wakes me up this morning to make potato salad! I'm sleeping and you want me to make potato salad! Why she can't make it because she was talking on the phone to relatives all morning and now she needs to get dressed for church. This pisses me off because it's just a lame ass excuse to wake me up. I am not going to church, christianity is not my thing. Sometimes I just want to yell "I'M A WITCH!" The only problem with that is that i'm not. I know a lot about wicca and other pagan religions but I don't actively practice it. I believe in being earth-centered and that we a part of the universe but that's about it. I've learn that yelling things for shock value isn't wise with my mom. She always freaks. ALWAYS!
My real problem is that I need to be away from this world. I LOVE living on my own. I like being alone. I like having my own life which is separate from my family. There are so many people that I've been jealous of my whole life for being so close to their parents but I am not one of those people. I have too much working against me for my family to ever know and like me. So my best solution is to run...to Portland!
But there is more! So my mom wakes me up this morning to make potato salad! I'm sleeping and you want me to make potato salad! Why she can't make it because she was talking on the phone to relatives all morning and now she needs to get dressed for church. This pisses me off because it's just a lame ass excuse to wake me up. I am not going to church, christianity is not my thing. Sometimes I just want to yell "I'M A WITCH!" The only problem with that is that i'm not. I know a lot about wicca and other pagan religions but I don't actively practice it. I believe in being earth-centered and that we a part of the universe but that's about it. I've learn that yelling things for shock value isn't wise with my mom. She always freaks. ALWAYS!
My real problem is that I need to be away from this world. I LOVE living on my own. I like being alone. I like having my own life which is separate from my family. There are so many people that I've been jealous of my whole life for being so close to their parents but I am not one of those people. I have too much working against me for my family to ever know and like me. So my best solution is to run...to Portland!