Because of you ~Chapter 8~
Chapter 8:
Title: Because of you
Pairing: MinhoxTaemin [2min] / JonghyunxKey [JongKey] / ninja!OnKey
Author: merryberry94
Chapter: 8/?
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: They are in Ring Ding Dong version. ^^
Summary: The things they do for love. Two people realizing what price they are paying for their happiness
Author's Note: Comments on this chapter are very important!!! I mean.... It was so damn hard for me to write all this smut and when someone comments it makes me write faster and faster the next chapter ^^ So please comment because the comments are really important for me and make me extremely happy <3
“Wow! Your room is a big mess, hyung.” Minho chuckles but Onew’s face was still serious.
“I want to know everything, Minho. Why did you run away? Why was Taemin locking himself in the room not letting anyone in? What the hell happened??”
“I can’t tell you hyung... If Taemin didn’t tell you himself I can’t do it.” Minho looks away trying to avoid Onew’s worried stare.
“Minho... This isn’t some sort of game-”
“I know! But... I can’t tell you. Maybe Taemin will tell you all when he’s ready but I can’t... It’s not right.”
“It’s for his good Minho!” Onew grabs the rapper’s shoulder and shakes him a little. But when Dubu sees and understands Minho a little he lets go and turns away. “Okay. I understand. It’s very mature of you to keep Taemin’s secret even if it’s for his good to share it..” he mummers the last words and Minho was already out of the room.
“That was close.” The rapper sighs and messes his hair. When he opens his eyes Taemin was in front of him staring him with angry and at the same time sad stare. “Uh! Taeminnie! You scared me-”
The maknae didn’t even let him finish what he was saying and pulls him rudely in their room. After closing the door he pushes him on the bed and stands in front of him.
“Um... Taeminnie-”
“Shut up!!” the maknae was angry and nothing good happens when he’s angry. “What the hell were you thinking?!?!”
“Taemin, calm down. I-”
“I said shut up!! Who told you you can speak?! If you say another word I will cut you!” Taemin pushes Minho back so he was now laying on the bed. “Do you know how hard it was for me to sleep alone in this big room after what happened...? Do you know that I haven’t slept in days because I was too scared? Do you even care how I was feeling the past week??” without knowing the dancer was sobbing and crying shaking hard and clenching his fists. “Do you know... how much I’ve missed you....?” finally he collapsed on the floor and tries not to cry too loud.
“Taemin...” Minho slowly goes near him and puts his hand on his shoulder.
“Is... is that it...? Only that? Only a touch on the shoulder...? Haven’t you missed me even a little...?” with every word Taemin was crying harder and harder and Minho was feeling more awkward.
“It’s not like that...”
“Then how it is?! Explain me Minho...” Taemin was now looking straight at Minho’s eyes trying to read something on his face. “Minho...”
The rapper didn’t even bother to say something and makes his way out of the room. Right after going out and closing the door he falls on the floor. He was shaking so hard that he couldn’t believe it himself. The rapper leans against the door and closes his eyes trying to ignore his lover’s cries.
“I’m sorry... I just can’t face you. Not now that I know I can’t even protect you... I’m sorry... that I’m not good enough for you...”
~
Onew was again sitting on the sofa but this time he was thinking. He was thinking so hard that you can feel his aura around him.
“Jinki, what are you doing?” Key interrupts the moment. When Onew looks at the Diva’s way he was speechless. He sure was beautiful but now he was with his new jeans that were tightly around his hips making every part of his skin visible and the shirt was too baggy and one of his shoulders was out. That was sure enough to make Onew lose his mind and start to imagine things.
“Jinki! I’m talking to you!!” thank God that Key broke Dubu’s fantasies but he wasn’t helping much because now he was too close to him, faces a couple of inches apart.
“Uwa!!” Onew moves back and somehow falls off the sofa.
“Um... what are you doing?” Key scratches his head and looks at Onew curiously.
“You-you scared me!”
“I was talking to you for like 5 minutes and you were just staring at me!! How the fuck did I scare you?!”
Onew just looks at Key for a moment, nods and then stands up. He goes in Key’s direction but just passes him and goes to his room.
“What the... LEE JINKI!! If you think you’ll get out of this you’re damn wrong!!” the Diva opens loudly the leader’s door and goes in like a demon. “What is wrong with you?!”
“Me? Nothing. But I think there is something wrong with you.”
“What?!”
“Why did you just come to my room like that?”
“.... Okay... I can’t. Whatever.” Key walks out with his both hands on his head.
“Aigo. ...” Onew falls back on his bed and covers his face with the pillow. “What is wrong with me...? It wasn’t so hard before. What is different now so I can’t control my mind?” right when he was already calm, Key goes in his room again this time louder.
“Okay. I don’t know what the problem is but I want to know if it’s me!! Moreover, if it’s me I want to know why! Why are you so weird out of nothing?! Sure, you’re always weird but... You’ve never been weird with me.” With the last sentence Key’s voice changes and he calms down. “Look... if there is something wrong you can tell me.”
“Don’t worry. I’m okay.” Onew smiles with his bright smile and makes the atmosphere around them calmer. “I was just worried about Taemin, that’s all.”
“You sure?”
“Yes. Why would I lie to you?” He laughs with his Dubu laugh and smiles wider.
Key didn’t say anything but just goes closer to Onew and lightly kisses his forehead. Then he leaves the room quietly. The Diva didn’t know that behind him he left one man that was on the edge and he was pushing him more and more and the man was about to fall any moment.
Onew touches the place that Key’s lips were and then collapses on the bed hiding his face in the pillow and screams quietly.
“What the hell?! Did I just screamed like a teenage girl?! Wahahahaaa~” Dubu stands up and shakes his head. “Yah! Onew! Get a hold of yourself. You can’t let that boy kill you with his charm! Fighting!” after walking around the room for a while, he walks out all calm and goes back to the sofa he was sitting on before.
“Oh, Minho. Good morning.”
“Yeah...” it was obvious that something was wrong.
“What’s wrong? Taemin?” he knew himself he didn’t have to ask. It was written all over Minho’s face that Taemin is the problem.
“You have to ask?” the rapper’s voice was emotionless with all his thoughts focused on the maknae.
“Do you want me to talk with him? Or anything? I can’t stand watching you like this! You’re the ‘Flaming charisma’ of the group! You can’t be depressed.” Onew’s smile makes Minho calm down a little and he takes one deep breath.
“I guess that’s the only way.... But...”
“But?”
“I don’t think I deserve him...” at that time, Onew felt Minho’s pain. The pain of not being able to protect the one you love, the pain of seeing your lover suffering, the pain of being weak.
“Minho...” that was the moment when even his smile couldn’t help. The silence continues a few more minutes before Onew stands up and sits next to Minho. “Don’t worry... I’ll try.” He tries to smile again but the rapper looked so bad that he wasn’t able to.
“Thank you, hyung... Thank you.” A small smile of hope appears on Minho’s lips but his eyes were the same as before - empty.
~
Taemin was sitting on his bed, Onew was sitting in front of him on one chair, and he looked like a dad who’s going to scold his son.
“Taemin-”
“No! If you’re going to talk about Minho don’t even start it. I don’t want to hear anything about him... He betrayed me... He... left me...” Taemin was clenching his fists and looking at Onew with the same eyes as Minho.
“Have you asked him the reason?”
“I did! But he ran away... again! Even when I was crying in front of him, he just left me again... What the hell is wrong with him?!” Taemin stands up and kicks Minho’s bed making Onew widen his eyes.
“Calm down now. I know you’re upset but I think you two should just have one long conversation and explain each other what bothers you. Am I right?”
“Yeah......” even if Taemin didn’t like it, Dubu was right. When things got serious, Onew becomes the most responsible person and that situation was really important. Not just for Minho and Taemin but for the whole group. If one of them leaves because of this scandal the group would be finished. Moreover, one leader doesn’t want this for his group, the group that he feels like a family. A really weird family but a family.
“Are you ready to talk now?”
“Now?!” Taemin looks at Onew with wide-open eyes and fear was written all over his face. “I...” ‘If I talk with him now I might just cry again and say things that will hurt him... The things might get worse than they are now but... I can’t procrastinate forever...’
“Okay... I think I’m ready...” obviously Taemin wasn’t ready for that and Onew sees it too.
“Still... do you want some time to think?”
“If I think more I won’t ever want to see him.”
“Okay...” Onew looks at Taemin who was sitting again on the bed with his angry and confused look. “You know... it’s really hard for me to watch you both so depressed... You are the sunshines of SHINee and now you’re both full with anger and sadness. It’s really painful for me...”
“Hyung...” Taemin feels too that the house was now empty and the only one that still stays in the living room was Onew. Jonghyun and Key were watching TV in Jonghyun’s room all night so they were sleeping till 2PM and Minho... Well he was away for week and his loud voice wasn’t echoing in the rooms. Taemin who was usually as loud as Minho was in his room all the time making it even quieter.
“I’m sorry....” Taemin says looking down.
“Don’t worry. Soon the house will be filled with laugher and screams again.” Onew’s smile comes back and it was so bright that lights the whole room. “I’ll go and tell Minho to come.” And with that Onew leaves the room with Taemin who was now panicked what he will do when the rapper comes.
‘What do I do? What do I do? Ahhhhh!!! What if I cry? What if I shout at him? What if I hit him? What if I... kiss him?’ Taemin turns red and shakes his head. ‘No, no, no, no!!! I won’t kiss him!! He... I hate him!!! .... I don’t hate him... =.= Fuck! Choi Minho, fuck you! I can’t think straight because of you!’ when the dancer was about to scream he hears the door opens and immediately looks in that direction.
Finally, they were facing each other and they were going to talk. To talk and try not to fight because it was kind of stupid to act like a kids who are fighting over some toy.
“Hey...” Minho says awkwardly not even looking at the other boy.
“Hey...” Taemin’s voice was quiet and calm. “You... wanted to talk?”
“Yeah. But I don’t think you want to hear me-”
“Ask me if I want to hear you.” That words makes Minho finally look at the boy and when he sees his eyes, he knows that everything will be all right. “Just... ask me...” the dancer’s eyes were full with tears but he was trying his best not to cry because if he cries he won’t be able to hear Minho.
“Do you... want to hear me?”
“Yes... Yes, Minho... Please talk to me... I can’t take it anymore! It’s so painful that I want to tear my heart out! I just want to talk to you and tell you all my problems and I want you to tell me yours and I want us to be able to just stare at each other and understand what the other is thinking, no words necessary. I want that so bad-”
Taemin was cut off from Minho who hugged him without saying a word. They were like this for a couple of minutes before Minho talks.
“I’m sorry for leaving you... It was... Just too hard for me to see you in pain...” for first time in his life, Taemin feels Minho’s tears on his shoulder. With each tear the dancer shivers and couldn’t hold back his tears anymore.
“Minho.... Please don’t cry.... I don’t want you to be sad. I want the always happy and sexy Minho who I know... Please come back!” Taemin tightens the hug but his legs were too weak with Minho in his arms and they both fall on the bed with the dancer under the rapper.
Their eyes meet and they were speechless for a minute then Taemin lifts his head until he reaches Minho’s lips but doesn’t kiss him. He stays a centimeter away from his lips waiting for the older boy to make a move.
Minho was panting over Taemin’s lips making it hard for them to breathe. Every breath that he takes makes Taemin shiver and want Minho more and more.
“Kiss me.” Taemin says in a low voice clenching his fingers in the back of Minho’s shirt. “Please... I can’t-” at that moment the rapper kisses the boy without warning and the boy likes it. The kiss was simple but it was sweet enough to make Taemin’s heart beat even faster and move Minho’s body closer. “Minho...” the dancer moans before the next kiss that the rapper was going to give him. Taemin lifts his hips a little and Minho feels his clothed erection. The dancer was repeating Minho’s name again and again making it hard for the rapper to hold on.
“If you don’t want me to violate you stop being so sexy...” Minho was breathing hard and Taemin felt that Minho was erected too.
“What if I ask you to violate me?” finally the beast in Taemin wakes up and says its word. “What if I beg you to violate me? Would you like that? Would you like me to be so sexy that you won’t have another choice? Would you, Minho?” the maknae whispers the last question in Minho’s ear and then softly and sexily kisses it. He was breathing in the rapper’s neck making him shiver with every breath the little boy takes.
“Taemin...” Minho was barely breathing and Taemin feels that his erection is growing, stroking him more and more and making the dancer hotter and more lustful.
“Come on... I know you want me badly. I feel it...” Taemin slides his hand down on Minho’s bulge and strokes it making the rapper moan in his ear and shiver. “See? We both want each other... so just-”
Minho grabs Taemin’s shoulder and pushes him on the bed hard and the dancer pants. The older boy was looking at the maknae with sigh full of sinful desire but something was stopping him.
“Why...?” Minho’s voice was like never before. It sounds like he is just about to cry but in the same time to kill someone. “Why did you forgive me so easy?! I don’t deserve you!! I don’t.... I....” one tear falls on Taemin’s cheek and that makes the maknae quickly hug his shivering hyung.
“Yah... It’s my decision to forgive you or not so don’t think like that! If you say another word like that I’m never going to look at you again!! Now look at me...” Taemin cupped Minho’s face in his little hands, which was so new for him. He never seen his lover so weak and it was breaking his heart in a completely new way. “Don’t make me hit you... Just smile for me.” Suddenly from the lustful grin on Taemin’s face, a warm smile appears telling Minho that everything is all right.
“Oh God... Look at me... I’m so pathetic.” Minho quickly laughs at himself and wipes his tears. “I’m sorry. When it comes for you my mind goes blank and I can do things that I’ve never know I can or say things that I didn’t know I was even thinking. Now what were you saying? You’ll beg me to violate you?” the usual grin appears on Minho’s face and that’s the first time it makes Taemin so happy. He quickly finds his lover’s lips, this time the kiss was long, and their tongues were fighting for domination until Taemin gives up as always.
Minho deepens the kiss and slides his hand down on Taemin’s hip. The maknae was moaning in his mouth without a sound coming out.
When Minho breaks the kiss, Taemin’s lips were swollen from all the kisses Minho gave him and their color was so seductive that Minho kisses him once again this time softer. When that kiss was over too Minho starts placing kisses on Taemin’s jaw line, neck and collarbone. He lifts the dancer’s shirt and continues the kisses on the nipples and down to his pants where he stops and moves away.
Taemin was panting so hard that his whole body was moving up and down with every breath. His eyes were blank from all the things Minho does to him.
“Let’s take this off.” The rapper takes off the maknae’s shirt with no problem and then takes off his own shirt and continues with the kisses and teases on Taemin’s now naked chest while stroking the boy’s erection. That drives Taemin crazy. He didn’t know what to do because of all the things that Minho was now doing to him. He was feeling like his heart will explode. He was trying to moan Minho’s name but with no use. He was just mummering something and could manage to even think properly. Minho was driving him crazy and he just loves that. With every touch and every word, his heart was beating faster and faster making it harder for him to breath.
Minho was feeling his lover like a big mess under him and he feels great because he was the reason Taemin was like this. His condition wasn’t perfect because his erection was aching and wanting to feel Taemin sooner but he was having fun teasing the boy and wasn’t thinking of giving him what he wanted soon.
“M-Minho... Ah!” finally the dancer manages to say his name which makes Minho look at him and stop with the all touches for a moment allowing the boy to say something. “Please... Please just fuck me.”
Minho was waiting for these words but he wanted to have a little more fun with teasing his lover more making him unable to talk and even breathe. He just takes his eyes off Taemin’s face, licks his nipple, and squeezes the dancer’s erection making him scream from the pleasure and the surprise.
“Please...!” Taemin was about to cry with his head leaning on the bed and his whole body shaking under Minho’s touch. When he sees that the other boy wasn’t planning to do anything he decides to take a move and somehow moves his leg between Minho’s hips and then suddenly strokes his aching erection making the rapper jump from the sudden move and moan loud his voice echoing in the room filled with hot air and moans.
“I said fuck me...!” the dancer’s voice was still shaking but his leg wasn’t moving away from Minho’s bulge which stops him from doing useless things that were just teasing the maknae. “How can you tease me when you want me so bad? You want me, right? You want to shove yourself in me making me lose my mind.” When Taemin wanted Minho his words were ruder that Key’s which was scaring Minho a little but he still likes how dirty the little boy was talking just to get his love.
Taemin makes another move with his leg making Minho shiver and move his head back moaning again.
“S-stop it...” the rapper was forced to beg Taemin to stop teasing him.
“Why? You were doing the same thing to me.”
“If you don’t stop how am I going to give you what you want?” Minho’s grin wins and Taemin moves his leg away and that was what the rapper was waiting for. “Fool.”
“Yah! AH!” Taemin was shut by Minho’s lips on his skin and his hands on his hips and ass. “Liar...!” but after a few seconds, Minho moves down and slowly takes Taemin’s pants off.
“I wasn’t lying. I was just playing a little.” Minho’s voice in that kind of situations was the sexiest thing Taemin has ever heard and it was like a drug for him. Sometimes it was pissing him off how sexy Minho is but he had his sides too. He was driving Minho crazy just with words and don’t count the touches and teasing stares. They were both walking sex and they fitted together perfectly.
The rapper kisses the inside of the maknae’s hip making him moan loudly and clench his fingers in the pillow that was next his head. Taemin was biting his lower lip to stop his voice escape his mouth but it was useless. With every touch, he was screaming loudly but none of them cared if someone hears because they knew no one would dare to come in. Even Key-umma was scared of what he will see so he was usually just banging on the door and screaming that he will kill them both when they come out.
Minho goes up and puts his fingers in Taemin’s mouth. Their lube was in Minho’s bag, which was in the living room, and going out to take it wasn’t a good idea so they had to use what they had. Taemin was pushing his tongue against the rapper’s fingers sucking them and licking them. Then Minho takes them out and slowly pushes one of them against Taemin’s hole as careful and he could. It wasn’t long until the other finger goes in too making Taemin shiver and moan ever louder. Feeling Minho in him even if it were only his fingers was driving him crazy. His muscles were squeezing Minho’s fingers begging for more.
“Fuck me!” Taemin’s voice was harsh and bossy. But Minho wasn’t in the mood to make fun of him because he couldn’t think. The only thing he could think was feeling Taemin around him and hearing him scream his name. The rapper quickly takes off his pants, which were just getting in the way and takes his fingers out making Taemin shiver again. He carefully thrusts himself into the little boy being careful of what his reactions will be. The last thing he wanted was to hurt him. He was slowly moving deeper and deeper with his lover shaking with every move he makes. When he was completely inside Taemin he waits for him to calm down and slower his breaths before making a move. When Taemin finally calms down he spreads his legs and puts them around Minho’s waist pushing him closer and deeper reaching his spot and the maknae moans loudly in Minho’s ear before panting countless times in his ear, which was driving the rapper crazy. He finally makes a move and slowly they both start moving in rhythm with Taemin moaning and panting in Minho’s ear. With every move the thrusts becomes faster and harder and Taemin’s moans too.
“Minho... Minho... Minho...! Oh God...! Feeling you in me is so... good!” Taemin moans again before tightening his shaking hips. He came all over himself and Minho with a loud moan tightening himself even more which just made Minho come too, inside of him. They were both panting hard, Minho on top of Taemin, feeling each other’s heartbeats.
When Minho lays next to Taemin, they look at each other and all the things that they were fighting for were forgotten. Now there were just the same feelings as when they started their games. But now, it wasn’t just a game. Their hearts were now one and they beat together, as their love is growing bigger and bigger. Taemin chuckles before leaning his head on Minho’s chest holding his hand and playing with it.
“Can I ask you...? Why you left?” Taemin asks with a soft and calm voice.
“I was scared that I’m not good enough for you so... And I couldn’t watch you in pain because I was going to really kill that bastard... Sorry...” Minho kisses Taemin’s little hand making the boy go red.
“I’m sorry for being such a kid and not letting you at least explain what’s worrying you...” he squeezes the rapper’s hand and hides his face in the older boy’s chest. “I love you... And I’m not saying it just because we had... sex. I really love you with all my heart and mind.”
“Did I feel embarrassment in your tone? The sex beast Lee Taemin was embarrassed to say ‘sex’?” Minho chuckles making Taemin pissed off. “I love you too. And I promise I won’t leave you again... If I’m weak I just have to get stronger, right?”