"do you have a fucking deathwish?" -phill
i talked to amber, for what i believe to be the last time.. it fucking drove me insane to talk to her, it was so fucking hard, my life is so much easier with out her.. now maybe all of this drama will stop... this entire issue has become one of those i told one friend, then they told one friend, then they told one friend,..etc.
after i talked to her i walked straight out of the school, then i was kinda out of it,.. but from phils words.. "you walked right past me, then out into the parking lot, through all of the traffic, almost got hit by two cars, then didnt even stop when you crossed the road, you almost got hit then too. do you have a fucking death wish?" i just kinda lost it, i was there with amber, then i was at mc'idees breaking down punching towel racks and crieing in the bathroom.. i wouldnt even talk to phill, i just nocked right through him, i avoyedded (spelt wrong, sue me) him because i knew that if he (if anyone) tried talking to me id say (or do) a lot of shit, that i wouldnt mean, so if i was ignoring any of you, thats why,.. sorry.. i dunno, i guess its better this way, i mean, it would be better if my fucking mom wouldnt still treat her like my girl friend, like her doughter. im sorry amber, but not a part of this fucking family...
----fuck it, ill come back later...