Oof.
I have my hands in too many projects again.
Oh yes, I hear you all already: "Well duh - we knew that already; it took you this long to figure it out?" Hey, I don't pretend to understand my brain's rationale some days. I seem to live in a perpetual state of living both in the moment and a year in the future, which makes concentration difficult despite all my best efforts.
Part of me sees all the big audio drama productions and thinks, "Gosh, how on earth did they get so big, so developed and, well, noticed? These people know everyone and everything!" I get jealous and feel frustrated and limited in what I'm getting done, not to mention impatient with my own progress.
Then I remember everything else I've been up to. Job searches for audio production. The occasional freelance mixing gig. Researching voice acting and small business. Two theatre shows with plans on one or two more once they finish. Scripting. Correspondence. Mixing, editing, SFX creation and collection, BGM research and evalautions, and meetings.
If I seem out of it or happen to be zoning out for a while, don't take it as an offense. My brain may have just checked out for the time being. Blegh.
...I will say this though. I may feel just as stressed as I did when I had my cafe job, but I'm enjoying life a lot more. And I no longer have an irrational hatred for the human race. AND I'm doing creative things that make me happy. Whatever happens in the next coming months, I'm happy about my decision.
Oh yes, I hear you all already: "Well duh - we knew that already; it took you this long to figure it out?" Hey, I don't pretend to understand my brain's rationale some days. I seem to live in a perpetual state of living both in the moment and a year in the future, which makes concentration difficult despite all my best efforts.
Part of me sees all the big audio drama productions and thinks, "Gosh, how on earth did they get so big, so developed and, well, noticed? These people know everyone and everything!" I get jealous and feel frustrated and limited in what I'm getting done, not to mention impatient with my own progress.
Then I remember everything else I've been up to. Job searches for audio production. The occasional freelance mixing gig. Researching voice acting and small business. Two theatre shows with plans on one or two more once they finish. Scripting. Correspondence. Mixing, editing, SFX creation and collection, BGM research and evalautions, and meetings.
If I seem out of it or happen to be zoning out for a while, don't take it as an offense. My brain may have just checked out for the time being. Blegh.
...I will say this though. I may feel just as stressed as I did when I had my cafe job, but I'm enjoying life a lot more. And I no longer have an irrational hatred for the human race. AND I'm doing creative things that make me happy. Whatever happens in the next coming months, I'm happy about my decision.