Thoughts....
I need to transcribe a radioplay short. In addition to everything else I'm doing. Well ok, no NEED, but it will eat me away inside if I don't let myself do it.
I really want to try out for Columbus Civic Theatre, or at least some community theatre production. Alas, I have no time. Hate.
At the moment, I am toying with pursuing a career in either stagefighting/stunt work and/or voice acting. Maybe go to LA years down the line. Not sure.
...the longer I'm not sure, the more ansy I get. Maybe I should have just blindly gone to Grad School for Ethnomusicology when I didn't know any better.
Trying to make a career out of the performing arts scares the crap out of me.
Radioplay for WCBE is in pre-production still, as it keeps growing and morphing into bigger things. Really excited about this, but trying to find the time to get all the extra stuff done is frustrating.
Maybe I need to stop procrastinating. But, really, "goof off" time per day adds up to something like an hour a day, I think. I just need more hours in the day. Or better organize my time. But it's hard.
I keep going to workshops, in part to learn more and get structured instruction (redundant), but possibly to escape my life as it is now. Bugger.
I am scared of committment, both professionally and socially. Well, ok; basic stuff like projects and friendships and whatnot are always fine...it's careers and more serious relationships that worry me.
I don't want to fail.
So I try to run away. Or make excuses.
I don't want to see a psychiatrist; I want to see a councilor. Difference.
I hate working at the cafe. I need to start finding the time to sit down and apply for new jobs.
...
Oh good god, I think I need another hour-by-hour schedule...funny thing is, I hate making schedules. Necessary evil, I suppose.
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GOAL: Get act together by the end of the week(end).
SPECIFICALLY:
--edit talking out of Guild audiotracks
--finish GuildCD copies
--attend Minstrelry rehearsals, brush up fight
--wash dishes
--tidy apartment
--do laundry
--send medical bill to State Farm
--pay electric bill
--finish one short story for Dreamcatcher
--email Dreamcatcher cast
--complete owed materials to cast
RESCHEDULED: due by Sat., Feb 14th at 7PM EST
--email artist about web graphics
--complete VA lines due
> R5Central Promo
>Shattered Heaven Ep.4
>Sailor Stars Ep.2-3
>Twilight of the Twins Ep.3
>KOTOR: Outcasts Ep.7
>duet w/Magic Kaito
>FutureSHOCK Ep.3
>Star Trek: Outpost Ep.3
NOTE: I HATE relying on the radio station to let me use the studio to record. I've stopped by 3 days in a row for several hours and NEVER got lines recorded. HATE.
--prepare list of VA lines due for February
--go to shooting range, brush up on pistol/revolver work
--meet Speicher on Sunday for gunwrangling
--apply for grant, if deadline has not passed
--transcribe "Cinema Veritae"
--call Hartford Insurance, refer them to State Farm for accident information
--find paid-time-off sheet for work; apply for PTO for last weekend
CANCELLED: Will do next week after finishing all earned hours for this week
--apply to attend Bang-Zoom Voice Acting workshop in Maryland
CANCELLED: Opting for VA demo submission to St.Louis production company instead
--find, apply to new jobs
--update resume
--update VA demo
...i'm sure there's more, I just can't remember the rest.
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BLARRGGHH.