*wHaT tHe HeLl ArE wAiTiNg FoR*
man i go from yay happy to not so yay sad... and right now im neither
its kinda nice
i just found out that it wasnt a joke and that everything was for real. makes me feel a whole lot better about everything... when i heard it was a joke i felt sooo horrible i felt used and i felt like a fool... but i think anyone who saw me upset and knew why understood. BUT IT WASNT A JOKE and i guess no one truely understands how that makes me feel... except for maybe chelsea.. which made it even worse seeing the only person who totally understood the pain... i didnt even get to talk to her about it. but its okay cause it is all figured out now. i talked to ricky about it last night and he was like THAT TAKES A SICK PERSON TO SAY THAT WAS A LIE. i was like now think i felt when i heard that, to hear that it was a joke and know everything that i went through was all just a game... i was like i dont think loosing 7 pounds from not eating or sleeping for 2 weeks is called a game! ohwell ill continue to move on and it will all be okay.
i met a new kool kid last night... he is so like me it was weird... but hey... its someone to talk to who... i can be myself and stuff with.. hehehhe neways
gawd i found out that branden has a show on the 17th and i was going to go then i found out that i have a wedding to go to...
im sooo excited for prom, i cant wait it is going to be fun! wo0t!
well thats all for now
so i leave u with one closing thought
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
- Green Day
hmmmm and Im out
its kinda nice
i just found out that it wasnt a joke and that everything was for real. makes me feel a whole lot better about everything... when i heard it was a joke i felt sooo horrible i felt used and i felt like a fool... but i think anyone who saw me upset and knew why understood. BUT IT WASNT A JOKE and i guess no one truely understands how that makes me feel... except for maybe chelsea.. which made it even worse seeing the only person who totally understood the pain... i didnt even get to talk to her about it. but its okay cause it is all figured out now. i talked to ricky about it last night and he was like THAT TAKES A SICK PERSON TO SAY THAT WAS A LIE. i was like now think i felt when i heard that, to hear that it was a joke and know everything that i went through was all just a game... i was like i dont think loosing 7 pounds from not eating or sleeping for 2 weeks is called a game! ohwell ill continue to move on and it will all be okay.
i met a new kool kid last night... he is so like me it was weird... but hey... its someone to talk to who... i can be myself and stuff with.. hehehhe neways
gawd i found out that branden has a show on the 17th and i was going to go then i found out that i have a wedding to go to...
im sooo excited for prom, i cant wait it is going to be fun! wo0t!
well thats all for now
so i leave u with one closing thought
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
- Green Day
hmmmm and Im out