latest saga
so had a great weekend with J last weekend. went barhopping, partied all night playing beirut and flip cup..didnt get to bed til 530..ugh...really was hurting that next day...hung out with him again that same night - went to see Premis at a local bar....not a bad group. they had some good numbers they played....i would go to see them again if i got the chance...
anyway...so J calls me then satnight to sun morn - 6 times!! between the hours of 1-11am in the next morning. what a crazy guy....flattering, but crazy and made me even more tired and cranky than i already was.
but i wanted to write down a few impressions about this sit. that i have to let go otherwise i'll go stark raving mad thinking about it constantly...
so a few things....J drinks way too much sometimes - but only on weekends...works at a crappy dead end job - wait..i shouldnt say crappy - he does make more than me - but keeps really bad hours...however...im scared as heck...this is so new for us considering we tried to date last yr. but timing was bad and we didnt get off on the right foot with each other b/c of our schedules and b/c of our states of mind. and now..im not sure.
i had asked him point blank - J...whats up...whats the deal .....and after much small talk ...he finally came out and admitted that he was looking for the type of girl that won't be up his ass 24-7 and yet someone that he can just call to chill out sometime if he wants......then he turns to me, tells me, I made a big mistake last yr by not sticking around trying to work things out with you...I was scared and wasn't ready to get into something with you. Now im ready and now im asking you for another chance...
So...me being me...said why not...lets give it a chance....I set some ground rules with him...and so far...so good...almost....
so...after sunday of his random phone calls...i didnt hear from him at all monday or tuesday - but......got an email this morning telling me he misses me and sorry he hasnt called or emailed but that hes been so incredibly busy etc...so...bottom line - we made plans. but then two hours later, he calls my cell leaves a msg. and tells me he cant hang out fri in the day b/c his dad needs him to help put up stuff on the addition to his house etc...so i was like no problem - but maybe we could hang out at night instead of the day - so then he calls back and tells me exactly what he has to do all day - and he thinks that all of this tops will take about 4 hrs....so i called him back again - left a msg and said - thats cool - why dont we plan to do something at night if you're up for it - and he called back - i wasnt around - i saw his missed call but he didnt leave a msg...
so thats the latest...and anyone of you poor souls that is reading this now is going to think that im totally overanalyzing the situation and making a huge deal out of nothing. i am scared..bottom line - i am really very scared about this.part of me is excited b/c last yr i was attracted to him as much as i am now...and part of me wants to stop being excited and make sure i know what im getting into.....RRRRR....this is sooooo frustrating.....
anyway...gotta go to bed - school tomorrow...and tons to do....
my pathetic life continues
anyway...so J calls me then satnight to sun morn - 6 times!! between the hours of 1-11am in the next morning. what a crazy guy....flattering, but crazy and made me even more tired and cranky than i already was.
but i wanted to write down a few impressions about this sit. that i have to let go otherwise i'll go stark raving mad thinking about it constantly...
so a few things....J drinks way too much sometimes - but only on weekends...works at a crappy dead end job - wait..i shouldnt say crappy - he does make more than me - but keeps really bad hours...however...im scared as heck...this is so new for us considering we tried to date last yr. but timing was bad and we didnt get off on the right foot with each other b/c of our schedules and b/c of our states of mind. and now..im not sure.
i had asked him point blank - J...whats up...whats the deal .....and after much small talk ...he finally came out and admitted that he was looking for the type of girl that won't be up his ass 24-7 and yet someone that he can just call to chill out sometime if he wants......then he turns to me, tells me, I made a big mistake last yr by not sticking around trying to work things out with you...I was scared and wasn't ready to get into something with you. Now im ready and now im asking you for another chance...
So...me being me...said why not...lets give it a chance....I set some ground rules with him...and so far...so good...almost....
so...after sunday of his random phone calls...i didnt hear from him at all monday or tuesday - but......got an email this morning telling me he misses me and sorry he hasnt called or emailed but that hes been so incredibly busy etc...so...bottom line - we made plans. but then two hours later, he calls my cell leaves a msg. and tells me he cant hang out fri in the day b/c his dad needs him to help put up stuff on the addition to his house etc...so i was like no problem - but maybe we could hang out at night instead of the day - so then he calls back and tells me exactly what he has to do all day - and he thinks that all of this tops will take about 4 hrs....so i called him back again - left a msg and said - thats cool - why dont we plan to do something at night if you're up for it - and he called back - i wasnt around - i saw his missed call but he didnt leave a msg...
so thats the latest...and anyone of you poor souls that is reading this now is going to think that im totally overanalyzing the situation and making a huge deal out of nothing. i am scared..bottom line - i am really very scared about this.part of me is excited b/c last yr i was attracted to him as much as i am now...and part of me wants to stop being excited and make sure i know what im getting into.....RRRRR....this is sooooo frustrating.....
anyway...gotta go to bed - school tomorrow...and tons to do....
my pathetic life continues