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Inwardly, it's a daily struggle for me to remember my closeness to God doesn't depend on me. What I don't feel doesn't indicate reality; only His truth does.
He is a God that overcame all obstacles to be mine, even though he should have been disgusted by my desire to live for myself.
He is a God that persued me in such a way that I couldn't avoid seeing it if I wanted to, after I became resentful of him because I couldn't have what I wanted.
He is a God who knows everything about me--my hidden thoughts, my ugliness, my wishes when they oppose everything He is--and has nevertheless taken me and made me better, used me for good things, and given me an insane ability to love.
He is not someone who will desert me because I feel distant. No. He is using this time to teach me that when I feel distant from Him, He is still always present, with me.
He is a God that overcame all obstacles to be mine, even though he should have been disgusted by my desire to live for myself.
He is a God that persued me in such a way that I couldn't avoid seeing it if I wanted to, after I became resentful of him because I couldn't have what I wanted.
He is a God who knows everything about me--my hidden thoughts, my ugliness, my wishes when they oppose everything He is--and has nevertheless taken me and made me better, used me for good things, and given me an insane ability to love.
He is not someone who will desert me because I feel distant. No. He is using this time to teach me that when I feel distant from Him, He is still always present, with me.